Oneshot 3 Embarassing Conversations

                                    

                                          
"You have no choice but to talk to me!" hisses Fourth suddenly.
The silence has now come to an end and he will not back down.
"You say you love me! You say you need me!", Fourth feels his anger quivering wildly, "But I'm not worthy to have you share with me. To talk to me!", this stab in his heart hurts so much, "So I have to be ready for you to push me back and leave at any time!", Fourth clenches his fists, "You are such a liar! And a coward! Keeping your thoughts and feelings only to yourself! Making any judgments without listening to me!", Fourth rubs the tears from his face with gruff hands.
He can't hold himself any longer.
Gemini's behavior is so unfair.
He can feel him after all.
What he saw could well be misinterpreted.
After all, it did seem like an intimate moment between Mix and him.
But Fourth just can't stand the fact that Gemini then shuts down completely.
So he doesn't want to see him anymore, he doesn't want to hear him anymore, he doesn't want to feel him anymore.
That pain coursing through Fourth at Gemini's words.
Fourth would love to listen to that voice in the back of his head.
Then he should probably show Gemini what it's like to not be able to see him, hear him, feel him anymore.
He would also like to just defiantly stomp away like a little kid.
Show him the middle finger.
Then don't, Gemini!
How long have my heart and soul belonged only to you?
How long have I carried this deep feeling of longing inside me?
So often Gemini showed himself cold and reserved.
So often he showed his defensiveness in front of the camera.
Fourth heart endured every resistance with patient confidence.
And yet it was Gemini who made him this completely crazy marriage proposal.
"Tse!" it suddenly hisses out of Fourth, "You're such a hypocrite!" hot tears run down his cheek again.
And he sees Gemini's tense face just peeking out of the driver's window.
Never would he show himself soft and weak in a moment of complete mindlessness.
Gemini closes his eyes and hears the angry sound of his love.
And his words only bounce off the flames that so torment him inside.
The thought of Fourth giving himself to another.
His lust.
His sounds.
His hot breath.
The sight of his aroused eyes.
Gemini's body spasms at these images that torment him.
What he saw burned on his retinas forever.
He can do nothing about this loss.
He has lost Fourth.
Another saw, felt, smelled the hot shame of his love.
And Gemini's lungs squeeze every oxygen from his body.
He doesn't want to breathe anymore.
The air around them is poisoned by the loss that played out before his eyes.