|Double Heartbreaks|

                                    

                                          
RENEE 
"What time are we leaving, Nicole?" I asked softly, dipping my hands in the snack bag and grabbing a bunch of chocolate chip cookies. 
"Leaving here?" Nicole asked in response, turning to face me. She snickered as she said again, "At this rate, you might increase your sugar level with how you've been eating, and you know that's not good for your health, right?" 
Rolling my eyes, I took another cookie, stuffing the sugary sweet in my mouth and grabbing my nearby can of cola, I sipped helplessly, gurgling at the end. 
Binge eating was the only way I could get my mind off Robert. So I'd eat my fill, even if I overstuffed myself. 
However, no matter how much I ate or drank, I couldn't get over him. 
His scent filled every inch of my skin, and the last kiss we'd shared before saying farewell was ingrained in me. 
If I licked my lips, I could still taste him, which made me more heartbroken. 
I'd done the right thing. This decision was best for both of us, right? Besides, there's no way I would have expected more from him. 
Even though I was dying inside, I was trying to justify my actions, and trying to make everything sound right.
"Are you okay, Renee?" Nicole asked, waving her hands in front of me, a puzzled expression on her face and in response,I blinked twice and nodded yes. 
"Did you catch what I just said? I was worried for a while because you were lost in your thoughts..." 
"I'm fine, Nicole. There's no  problem." I blurted out, the guilt buried in the depths of my conscience resurfacing and it only encouraged her to question me more.
Since I'd stepped into the motel, asking for some space, she'd obliged. But now the look she gave me told me she was done waiting. 
She needed the whole story. She wanted to know what had happened between Robert and me. She wanted all the juicy deets about my escapade, and I'd promised to tell her everything, so now I just had to. 
But how could I tell her that I might have hopelessly fallen in love with a stranger? How could I tell her that Robert was twice my age and not someone I could be with long-term? How could I also tell her that Robert had a strange, mysterious personality and that he'd stalked me and gotten some personal information about me? How could I tell her all this? How would I start? What would I say? 
"Renee, you better start talking. I have no idea why you've been sulking and eating since you returned from that trip with your handsome stranger, but I'll be damned if I don't get the full story. Also, we don't have much time. We're supposed to leave tomorrow, and we haven't even packed yet." 
"Yeah, I know. You didn't answer my question too. What time are we leaving?" 
"Early in the morning if we want to catch the train on time. Probably before eight, we'll be out of here. So we need to pack up and sleep early, but what happened between you and your hot stranger?" Nicole asked again, her brows furrowed as she gave me a wink, and my chest clenched painfully. 
The more she reminded me that we had a train to catch tomorrow, the more I became scared of leaving this city. 
If I left Miami, I'd be saying goodbye to the memories I'd made here and Robert too. 
I'd come to this city to nurse a heartbreak, but I was leaving with a new one. Oh, what an irony! 
"Hmmmn..." I sighed slowly. 
"Yes? I'm waiting, Renee." 
"I... Honestly, I don't know how to begin or what to say. I'm... I'm... I'm confused." I stuttered, a whimper escaping my lips, and that's when Nicole became worried.