Ch.36 ~ bad news

                                    

                                          
~let's find out what happened to Travis~
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'Recap'
"Alright, go ahead and get in my car I'll go get Sal"
"Aye-aye captain!"
We giggled a bit and headed out separate ways.
'End Of Recap'
I knocked on sals door and he came out with a worried look and I explained what we were going to do, he was on board and got in the car.
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(At Travis's house)
We were always cautious with Travis's dad when we would ask to hang out with Him so we all kindly asked him if we could see Travis and he ended up just scoffing and saying:
"Yeah, sure, I don't care"
Before walking away.
When we got into His room he was no where to be found and we looked almost everywhere before we realized that the restroom door was closed and locked with the light on. I knocked on the door and said:
"Hey Travis, you in there?"
No answer.
"Travis?"
The door unlocked and there was a thud from inside.
"Travis, you good man?"
"I'm gonna regret this but..." I opened the door to see.... Travis.... But he was on the ground, eyes closed, and a knife in his neck with his hand resting on it.
My vision was beginning to get blurry from the tears welling up in my eyes. I slowly began backing away, at this point Sal had been attracted to the situation and came to see what me and Larry were looking at.
"No no no no no, this isn't happening it's all just in our imagination" I said with nervous giggles and smiles here and there.
"But it's not."
"Nope! It is, none of this is real... in fact, this whole interaction isn't real, it's just a bad dream, it will all be over soon, I'll wake up and forget this ever happened!" I said still with a nervous smile and giggles.
"Y/n, it's better to accept it now then push it off and it all come crashing down at some point."
Now the tears that I was able to push back came in waves. the first one not so bad, second worse but not water works quite yet, the third was bad but not water works, the fourth is when it calmed down enough for me to be able to see and I guess I cried myself dry because no matter how hard I tried I couldn't cry anymore. This all happened in the span of 2 seconds.
I walked back into the bathroom and saw a note on the counter, it read:
Travis- "May this day bring me rest and peace."
I have fought this urge since my early teenage years... I gave this life
all the fight I had. To everyone who has entered my life I'm so grateful
and I can only imagine how this may find you, who ever you are. Maybe y/n, sal, Larry, my dad, Ashley, Todd, maple, or maybe even chugg. I have been surrounded
by people who may have honestly thought that I was okay, but I haven't
been okay for a while. I struggled so much through just this year
alone. From covid, to daily beatings, to nearly failing all of my classes.
To the people in my life I pray you learn to vocalize your feelings and
get help always!!! I failed at that and I'm afraid it's to late. Y/N,
THANKYOU SO MUCH, I pray you know I'm at rest now! You would've
given anything to see me happy, you have given everything to see me
happy! I'm happy in the water where everything is still and peaceful. I
have written so many suicide notes in my life but finally, I've reached
my end. I hope this teaches everyone to check on your "strong"
friends, be present always! I'm contradicting myself but NEVER give
up!!! I know that I'm letting a lot people down by what I'm about to do.
But....... truth is I've already let down so many people throughout my life
and it just feels unbearable. I've lost my connection to God. The devil
seems to have won. & that is okay, I blame no one for this! I thank
everyone for all they've done & IM SORRY IM SO SO SORRY. But
thinking about how everyone else would feel about my death is not
enough either, I've tried to please and make everyone else happy my
entire life. I've been dead inside for too long. To everyone I love, just
remember that this is not your fault and I pray you don't find guilt in
my situation. To my grandad...... I wish you were here to tell me I'm
being stupid, to tell me it's not worth it, but you've left me & found
your own peace. I've always been stubborn and prideful just like you. I
always dreamed of becoming so many things that I am today, but they
just aren't enough. I'm not enough. I haven't felt enough for a while...
but I say all this to say, I'm done fighting. My battle is over and I pray
everyone finds peace in that.
'Fuck, if he would have held on for at least a month and a half he would be out of this shit of a household and in a village dorm...'
"Guys?"
"Yeah?"
"What's up?"
"What do we do?"
"I have no clue, I guess whoever his dad likes the most breaks the news?"
"That def wouldn't be me"
"And it's not me"
"Guys, his dad doesn't like me, I'm the one that Travis would always go to to get away from his dad"
"Good point but I bet Travis told his dad about all the things you did for him, and your also the one who was friends with him first"
"Yeah, realistically, his dad would like you the best."
"Ok, well I guess you guys go and I'll tell him, I don't think it would be wise to have a lot of people over at the time of me telling him..."
"Alright but I'm staying outside the door"
"Same, just in case his dad gets violent"
"Alright"
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~oh shit, things took a turn for the worse(I mean I can't be surprised cus I already knew this was going to happen but oh well)~
~also srry for you Travis simps 😐 I didn't think abt you guys lol~
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~have a good rest of your night or day, thanks for reading this chapter, and see you later~