I never understood what made your lips on my neck such an intimate affair,
until your teeth grazed against my pulse and I realized...
You could tear open my throat and make me bleed out in your arms, but instead...
You chose to kiss.
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~FELIX'SPOV~
It's painful.
The feeling as if my throat was ripping open and stitching itself back together any time I tried to keep up the slow pace. The thirst making my tongue feel like sandpaper against the roof of my mouth.
The obsession I felt once I tasted the blood only drove my mind crazy. Obsession, the lust for it. I wanted to feel this high, but I hated every second of it. Though it was getting easier to control each time we walked through this procedure, it was still so incredibly hard. Though I blame putting myself through 17 years of bullshit before finally manning the fuck up.
Sunoo was keeping an eye on me. Not that it mattered. Day three of taking it slow was enough for me to pick up that habit. But he stayed around just in case. I know Minho and Hyunjin were watching from upstairs too. In case anything happened, in case I broke.. Minho was to get Hyunjin out of here as quickly as possible. But I never did, I kept myself in line. Even if it was so fucking hard to do so.
But I needed to get this done and over with. It was Friday. I was going on my second date with Chan and I was taking extra measures and precautions. I was learning how to stop myself, control the urge, with baby steps. We've learned over these past few days that we should've been doing it this way to begin with. But I still had them chain me during feeding time just in case, though we've never needed them.
After I was done, I threw the bag away from me and took deep breaths, Sunoo unlocking me from the cuffs. "Remember when I said you haven't found the right motivation for this yet?" He asked me and I nodded.
"Who knew that all you needed to do was fall in love." He shook his head with a laugh.
"With a human, might I add." Minho said as he came down the stairs.
I let out a hoarse chuckle, my throat drying up. My body still craved but I knew the feeling would pass in a few minutes.
"So, what are your date night plans?" Minho asked, helping me onto my feet.
"Movie marathon, Chris's idea." I smiled and he giggled.
"That's cute. Try not to tear each others clothes off halfway through the movie." He said, "Chris won't survive it."
Yet another thing I didn't want to hear. I couldn't touch him like that even if he asked. A vampires sexual desire is too strong for a human's body to handle. But I wasn't too worried about that.
"We are only on date number two, Minho." I said, shaking my head. "It's not gonna happen. Now I have to meet him at the shop, I'll probably be back late."
I grabbed my jacket and my phone. Hyunjin gave me a quick side hug, letting his legs go limp as I dragged him to the door with me. Both of us laughing at it.
