Fifteen

                                    

                                          

One week later...
I don't know how but I stayed clean for a whole week which means I can go to college again and escape this thoughts for a short time I will see my friends again but most importantly I will see Harry again 
Yes.I have still a crush on him even when he is with peter2 I guess I should be happy for me I mean he has the luck having Harry or at least had him. But I will get them together 
Wait...if Harry is with peter2 doesn't that mean technically I'm with him too? I mean peter2 is just another version of me.
I should bring Gwen's Peter back too for sure they willl be together forever  
We were in the car  nearly there in the M.I.T when dad stopped it he looked at me 
"I have to tell you something" he said 
I have a bad feeling about this 
"what? I asked confused 
"your friend Ned...." He made a pause before he continued "he's dead"
And I was right with the bad feeling this can't be happening flash did it didn't he? And it's all my fucking fault I just couldn't fucking keep my mouth shout stupid me.
Flash voice again
Yeah it's your fault
It was stupid from you to tell them
Very stupid 
Now ned is dead 
And soon will you other friends and family 
And then you
I told you
There's no escape 
I ignore the thought as hard as I could for the moment 
"It was flash wasn't it? I asked 
"Yeah it was I'm sorry kid-"
"How did he come torwads the bodyguards?"
I interrupted him 
"look I'm sorry Pete but the college didn't allowed it" he said 
flash wasn't joking he would kill all I love he was serious I can't believe he killed Ned this just can't be real and it is all my fault it always is. Even when all say it isn't. I told them what he did if I just kept it to myself Ned would be still alive and none of this would be happing.
"when did this happened?" I asked 
"3 days ago..." he said
"3 DAYS AGO??? My other friends could be dead too till now and you only tell me that now? Are we going to college or was this just some lie!" I yelled at him 
Harry,Gwen,mj all of them could be dead till now  even  dad,mom, Harley hell all of them could be dead till now but they not...right? Maybe I'm just overthinking or am I? Ok maybe I should stop thinking for a bit
"we are going to get you friends out" he sighed  at least he can protect them I hope 
"sorry for yelling and shouting" I said 
"Theres no apology needed I unterstand I should told you sooner but I was afraid how you react to that I just want to protect you" he  sighed and began to drive again 
I unterstand that he just want to protect me from everything but that's no need to lie to me again.
we picked mj and Gwen  up  Gwen had some bruises on her arm she told me it was from flash because she saw him Beating up Harry and then flash did beat her up too but not before she punched Im into the nuts and his face.
It's my fault Gwen and Harry are hurt it's all my fucking  fault why did I told them? Why didn't I just keep it to me? Like I did it all this years? It was stupid to tell them now they in danger and hurt already.
We went to Harry he opened the door. And then I saw his face he had a black eye a cut on the face and his nose wouldn't stop bleeding the cut was fresh so it had to be from today it was worse seeing it then hearing about it 
"I'm sorry" I said 
"Peter it's not you fault flash tried to kill me one hour ago but you have too see him me and Gwen beated him pretty bad" he said laughing but I couldn't laugh flash beated him  and Gwen up I couldn't laugh at that flash tried to kill them and it's all just my fucking fault
Yeah it is
It's your fault Ned is dead 
It's your fault Harry got hurt
It's your fault Gwen got hurt 
You just had to kept your mouth shut and none of this would have happened 
But you couldn't 
You're were to weak
You're a bad friend 
The voice was right  It's  all my fault it's my fault Ned is dead and Harry and Gwen got hurt if I just didn't told anyone what flash did to me none of this would have happend 
"I wish he would let your all in peace and would take me instead" I said 
Gwen hugged me "no it's okay it doesn't hurt and beating him up was fun so don't say something like this! Please Peter"
"Buts it's true" I said meaning it 
It's true and I mean every word of it. flash should have killed me instead  then they wouldn't be in danger anymore. well I hope that but I can't see through flash I don't know what he will do the next time I see him or when I die I hate it.
"we have to go now" dad  interrupted  us
Harry nodded and we left the college driving home  I hope they are save from him here. There is no way flash would go in here right? I just can hope nothing more
I just want them to be alive and happy flash ruined my life I won't let that happen to anyone else. I'm  stupid for telling them flash told me what he would do and I just told them anyway.