birthday!(⚠️🔥)

                                    

                                          
i had the best dream. it was so cute but i was scared aswell. i had the cutest baby and he was mine! but there was no one else in the dream. i was alone just me and the baby. i took care of him all by myself. i did everything all by myself. i was alone. what if that was real? would i last, could i get through it, who's baby was it, could it have been col- i stoped myself from thinking about it. of course it would be amazing but that's too fast, not now. i shot up in my bed. ITS MY BIRTHDAY! i thought to myself. I jumped up and got dressed into shorts and a t-shirt and ran downstairs. 
b-"ITS MY BIRTHDAAAAAYYYYYY!" i shouted running down the stairs. the house was littered with red solo cups. 
b-"oh shit." i grabbed a trash bag and started filling it up. i got a full bag when sam came downstairs. 
s-"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!"
b-"THANKS SAM!"
s-"are you cleaning up?"
b-"i couldn't leave it, i had too!"
s-"no, it's your birthday. i'll do it. go sit."
b-"there you go." i held the bag out and he started cleaning. 
s-"i excepted you to protest but this saves time."
b-"yep!" i sat down on the couch and put on superstore. i was completely unaware of what was happening around me, only the tv was catching my attention. my phone was next to me. the screen illuminated as it pinged. "happy birthday!" messages flooded in from friends. i turned it over and put it on silent. 
cb-"HAPPY BIRTHDAY CROPER!"
j-"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!"
k-"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!"
cr-"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!"
s-"i already did this." 
b-"thank you, everyone! wait, you did not just call me croper! tell me you're lying!" i paused the tv and turned round resting my arm across the back of the sofa. cb-"nope, your last birthday was, well something."
b-"I DIDNT MEAN TO!"
j-"what did she do?"
cb-"well she-"
b-"NO! we swore no one but me you sam and kat would ever know!"
j-"oh c'mon! tell me!"
b-"NO!"
cb-"i'll just tell him later and that way he can know every detail and you can't stop me."
b-"COLBY! NO!"
j-"BELLA PLEASE!"
b-"oh fucking fine! but it doesn't leave this house."
cr-"i'm listening." Corey said walking over. 
s-"prepare yourselves, i mean it."
k-"it's insane!"
cb-"okay, basically on her 21st birthday she got absolutely hammered and dragged us to a felid. then she went round the crop beds grabbing each one and putting them in her handbag. the farmer came out and he threatened to shoot us. bella being bella threw all of the vegetables at the farmer and ran full speed with us and the farmer yelled "YOU FUCKING CROPER!" we didn't know what it meant but she was one."
j-"so not only did you steal his food you threw it at him?"
b-"yes, yes i did."
cr-"wait so why couldn't he tell us that?"
b-"it's what happened after that you can't know."
cb-"it was... bad."
s-"very, very bad."
k-"like insanely embarrassing bad."
cr-"well you can't just not tell us now."
j-"please?"
b-"fine, i pissed my self while running away."
cr-"YOU PISSED YOURSELF!" he basically screamed laughing. 
j-"NAH THATS BAD!"
b-"OH SHUT UP! YOU WERENT THERE YOU DONT KNOW!"
j-"YOU PISSED YOURSELF YOU CROPER!"
cb-"woah! don't use my nickname for her!"
b-"there's a lot of nicknames that colby can call me that you can't."
j-"what's that supposed to mean?"
cb-"inside jokes."
j-"inside like-"
b-"JAKE! no. inside jokes as in jokes you don't know about."
cb-"anywaaayyyy!"
b-"where's my gifts?" i joked. 
cb-"gifts are coming but we need food!"
b-"yes we do!"
s-"who's cooking?"
b-"oooh no thanks!"
j-"postamtes?"
b-"OH 100% YES!"
j-"birthday girl says yes!"
b-"CHIPOTLLEEEEEE!"
c-"OH SHE GETS IT!"
s-"TAUGHT YOU WELL!"
b-"you bet!"
cr-"how the fuck are you not slightly hungover?"
b-"i just don't get hungover."
s-"yeah right!"
b-"i don't! look, i drank loads last night i'm fine!"
cb-"you did drink A LOT!".   
k-"oh more than a lot, a shit load!"
b-"yes, i did. and i'm 100% fine."
j-"well aren't you lucky!"
b-"no i'm just not a lightweight." 
s-"well i loved the videos of you and Colby singing country road! all over instagram and TikTok."
colbys eyes went wide. i felt slightly embarrassed but it was amazing!
b-"oh we did amazing!"
cb-"you bet."
b-"now, JAKE FOOD!"
s-"you've watched this show so many times, why?"
b-"it's just a good show."
s-"so, present 1?"
b-"OH YES! SAM! YES!"
s-"calm down! it's just a gift."
b-"SAM ITS MY BIRTHDAY I SHOULD BE EXCITED."
k-"oh you should be!"
b-"STOP IM TOO EXCITED FOR THIS IM GONNA FUCKING EXPLODE!"
cb-"BELLA! calm down!"
b-"sorry."
something inside me snapped like a disciplined dog would after a whistle. i calmed down and sat back down into the sofa. sam came running back in with a small bag with tissue paper poking out the top. as soon as he placed it on my knee i ripped the paper out. a small white box laid at the bottom. i reached in and pulled it out.
"alexa & toni" the box read on the front. i lifted the lid off and inside was a silver chained necklace with a tiny silver love heart with a B engraved. 
b-"OHH ITS SO CUTE! I LOVE IT!" 
s-"kat found it."
b-"thank you sam, or kat, i love it so much!" i pulled it out gently the fine chain draped over my palm. i fought the clasp and tried to fasten it around my neck. i struggled for about 10 seconds and then i felt hands taking it away. Colbys cold rings freezing the back of my neck. 
b-"thank you colby."
cb-"no problem hun."
b-"that's a new one." i put my head on the back of the sofa looking up at him. he looked back down at me smiling. i lifted my arms to get a hug from him, he walked round the sofa and toward me. my arms still out. he threw himself into me putting all his weight onto me and kissed me. i started smiling and he rolled to sit down. 
cr-"get a room!"
b-"we've got one."
cb-"two actually."
cr-"use it."
cb-"well we-"
b-"COLE ROBERT BROCK SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH RIGHT NOW!"
cb-"jesus, full name!"
b-"jesus, you're so predictable that you didn't need to say anything else but 'we'll we'"
s-"she's right you're pretty predictable."
cb-"all i was gonna say was we us-" i rolled over onto his chest and slammed my palm over his lips.
b-"COLBY I SWEAR TO FUCK IF YOU DONT SHUT YOU BEAUTIFUL LITTLE LIPS I WILL BREAK UP WITH YOU!" i moved my hand and rolled back to where i was. 
cb-"i can't tell if that was a threat or a compliment?"
b-"BOTH!"
cr-"i don't think that works, it like cancels the other one out, doesn't it?"
b-"I DONT KNOW COREY!"
j-"CALM DOWN! post mates is here!"
b-"OOOOH YES!" i jumped up and ran to the kitchen where Jake was putting the post mates out.
cb-"you give her food she's good."
s-"it always works."
k-"especially burritos!"
cb-"oh 100% especially burritos!"
s-"well should we get one?"
k-"YES WE SHOULD!"
i was grabbing boxes trying to find my burrito. after searching each one i found it on the last one. 
b-"YES! GOT IT!"
i threw it on a plate and ran back to the sofa passing Kat Sam and Colby.
cb-"WOAH! slow down bell!"
b-"NOT WITH A BURRITO!"
k-"told you!"
b-"OH MY GOD!"
cb-"what? WHAT?"
b-"I DUNNO ABOUT YOU BUT IM FEELING 22!" i sang dancing around the living room. 
cb-"very good bel, now calm down!"
everyone ate and i finished first and almost immediately. 
cr-"wait, so you fell on jake and there's a video?"
b-"not anymore."
cb-"no, i've still got it."
b-"i thought i deleted it."
cb-"no, you handed it back before you did."
the tv turned on and colbys phone mirrored to it.
b-"COLBY!"
cb-"WHAT?"
b-"don't."
cb-"please?"
b-"oh fine!"
he showed the video to the whole house and i sat in embarrassment. 
cb-"hey, it's funny, you were drunk, you're fine."
b-"i guess."
j-"bella, if the colby thing doesn't work out hit me up!"
b-"i'll tell tara about that."
j-"I WAS JOKING!"
cb-"wait why wouldn't it work out?"
j-"i- well, i don't know. it wasn't a serious thing."
b-"wait no, if it was a serious thing why wouldn't it jake?"
j-"well it wasn't so i don't know!"
cb-"no. tell us."
j-"i don't know, maybe an argument that goes to far."
i looked at colby, he looked at me. we started laughing and i slapped my hand on his chest rocking back and forth laughing. 
b-"Jake we've had fights as best friends, do you think something like thats gonna tear us apart?"
cb-"have you gone crazy or something?"
j-"probably."
s-"ANYWAY! how about another present?"
b-"YES!"
s-"who's turn is it?"
cb-"mine?"
s-"that's gonna be one of the last."
j-"how about mine and tara's?"
s-"sure, where is she?"
j-"upstairs, asleep as always!"
t-"no im not." she said coming down the stairs. 
b-"TARA! HEY!" i jumped up running to her. 
t-"BELLA! happy birthday!"
b-"thank you!" i took a little bow.
t-"you're old as fuck."
b-"shut up! i am not! plus that would mean that sam,colby and Corey are old as fuck."
t-"THEY ARE!"
b-"OH SHUT UP IM 22!"
i ran back to the sofa and threw myself back down onto it.
s-"so where'd we land on presents?"
j-"mine and tara's?"
b-"i'll take any."
t-"i'll go get it."
she ran upstairs and after about 2 minutes she came back down with a black box.
t-"here you go!"
b-"thank you!" she placed it in my lap and i pulled the piece of ribbon that was holding the lid on. slowly i pulled the lid up to see bags of candy and gift cards rested in black shredded paper. under all the paper was a blank envelope. i pulled it out and opened it. inside was two tickets to go do indoor racing. 
b-"OH. MY. GOD. THANK YOU!"
j-"take who you would like with you."
b-"wait so when is it?"
t-"two weeks from today."
b-"okay so i have time to choose, anyway, i love it thank you." i hugged both of them. i was full of excitement. racing has been something i've wanted to do for years. i feel like i was set up to take colby and i would but i feel like taking kat would be insanely fun. it was about 6:30pm i decided to get actualy dressed not just whatever i grabbed from the floor. 
b-"i'm gonna go get dressed, this is not working!"
i stood up and walked upstairs to my room. i got changed into jean shorts and a hoodie and freshened up my face and my hair. i didn't want to look like i'd just crawled out of the ground and picked up fashion sense. my green slides were on the floor by my door so i chose them as the easiest option. maybe i don't have fashion sense. i ran back down to the living room and stood behind the couch. 
cb-"wait bella, did you get round to the cake last night?"
b-"there was cake?"
cb-"yeah! i got it, it better be still in there!"
b-"in where?!"
he ran past me to the kitchen. i followed him to the refrigerator. 
cb-"OH FOR FUCK SAKE!"
b-"WHAT?!"
cb-"it's gone." he seemed quite upset about it.
b-"hey, it's fine. it was just a cake." i comforted him rubbing his arm.
cb-"yeah but it was your favourite, red velvet."
b-"we can get another one. i promise it's fine."
my hand moved to his back. 
cb-"thanks bel, i guess you're right."
b-"im always right."
cb-"yeah, you are." his head rested on the top of mine. a warm fuzzy feeling ran through my veins. 
his brown hair just covering my vision. i couldn't help but smile, for the first time in my life i had someone who loved me more than ever and i loved him more than anyone i'd met. after about 10 seconds i told him that. 
b-"colby, i love you, so much. more than anyone i've ever met and i mean that with everything i have."
i was still stood with his head rested on mine and we were both leaned against the refrigerator. 
cb-"i do too bel, you mean everything to me."
b-"really?"
cb-"yeah." he said softly.
b-"i had a dream last night, i don't wanna freak you out because i don't know what it meant but i had a baby. i was alone, i took care of him by myself and i woke up and started thinking if i was alone would i be able to cope. and then i drifted and freaked myself out think about who's kid it was and then-"
cb-"i- woah, a lot to unpack there. i think i get what you were going to say. i would never leave you, especially if we had a baby. i'd beat myself up about it if i did."
b-"it was just a dream but thanks for not dream leaving me and not leaving the dream baby."
cb-"wouldn't dream of it."
b-"dose that work?"
cb-"uhhh, i don't know but the main point is i wouldn't leave you or our baby, if we ever had one."
b-"well thanks, love you."
he lifted his head and stood in-front of me.
cb-"i love you bella." he placed his hands on the dips in my waist and looked dead into my soul. 
cb-"no like i really do."
b-"and i really do love you too Colby." i placed my hand on his cheek and kissed him. my hand dropped to his wrist gently squeezing it.
cb-"how about instead of you just waiting around for presents we do them now and i take you for a dinner, how's that sound?"
b-"that sounds amazing." i replied almost whispering.
cb-"great, lets get presents out to you."
b-"yes please!"
cb-"c'mon then." i linked my arm in his and walked back to the living room. 
cb-"okay, we're going to do presents now because me and bell are going out for dinner. is that okay with everyone?" i stood next to him my arm still linked in his and smiling.
everyone said it was fine with them and after about 10minutes i was given all the presents to open but the ones from colby were still in his hands.
i got gift cards, candy, money and more from everyone. 
cb-"okay so i'm gonna let you open these two now and this one at dinner." he put a bag aside and handed me two others. in one was a pair of black thick heeled boots and in the other was a slinky mini black dress that i'd shown him about three weeks ago. 
b-"awwe. thank you colbs, you remembered!"
cb-"i just thought that your boots you have now are really beat up and you really liked that dress."
b-"i'm gonna wear them later for dinner." i gave him a huge hug and a peck on the cheek. 
s-"HEY! i got her those boots! they're good boots!"
b-"you got me them 5 years ago they are worn out."
s-"well they lasted a while."
cb-"but the ones i got are better!"
s-"are they bella?"
b-"i- well, don't make me choose between you two!"
j-"it's an obvious choice for her though."
b-"OH MY GOD JAKE! yes i love colby and yes he's my boyfriend and best friend but sams my best friend too i don't choose favourites!"
cr-"so life or death situation, sam or colby, who are you choosing?"
b-"i'm gonna choose... hmm... death."
s-"nice to know you'd let yourself die before choosing me."
b-"HEY DONT TWIST IT! all i'm saying is i don't have favourites and i'm not going to choose one over the other."
cb-"anywaaayyyy... go get ready for dinner i'll call somewhere for a table."
i jumped up and walked round the couch taking the boots and dress with me. 
b-"thank you colbs, love you." i placed my arms over his shoulders almost linking at the back of his neck. kissed him and he pulled me in for a hug. 
cb-"love you too, go! go get ready!" he pushed me back gently to basically shoo me upstairs.
i ran upstairs and got a shower. i put on underwear and wrapped myself in my bath robe and put my hair in a towel. i laid out the dress on the bed. i blow dried my hair and started curling it. after about 20minutes i finished my hair and burnt my finger in the process. 
cb-"croper? you in there?" he said lightly knocking on the door. 
b-"yes i am. but stop calling me croper!" slowly the door opened and colbys stepped in closing it behind him. 
cb-"awe im sorry croper."
b-"STOP!"
cb-"okay fine... croper."
b-"COLBS!" he sat down on the bean bag next to me and kept talking. 
cb-"okay sorry that was the last one!"
b-"thank you, love you."
cb-"love you too, now get changed! we've got an hour and it takes you about that to do your makeup."
b-"it dose not! but i will." 
c-"it dose!"
b-"20 minutes max!"
c-"it dose not! it takes you at-least half an hour!"
b-"okay maybe, but i'm getting changed first. also i burnt my finger really bad."
c-"awe sad little baby got burnt."
b-"i don't know why i even speak to you."
i jumped up and walked over to the bed where my dress was. colby was sat on the beanbag scrolling through his phone. i dropped the robe and picked the dress up. i could feel colbys eyes on me, i sharply looked over my shoulder smirking, sure enough he was looking. i wasn't mad at all, i liked it.
c-"i- what i was doing wa- bel- i jus-"
b-"thanks." i slipped the dress on and walked over to him, a knot forming in my stomach. 
c-"why a thanks?"
b-"it's nice to know." i stared down into his beautiful blue eyes that stared back up at mine. 
c-"so i can look?"
b-"whenever." my voice low but soft. i placed my arms over his shoulders, my hands interlocking at the back, and sat on his lap basically straddling him. i didn't break eye contact with him which is usually a struggle for me. 
c-"i- woah." a smile grew on my lips as he said it. his hands were on my lower back, mine slid up to the back of his head and i leant in kissing him. kissing turned into making out within seconds. colbys hands were on the back off my neck his thumbs moving in circles. i let out a small whimper. my lips slowly traveled to his jawline.
c-"oh shit." he whispered almost inaudibly. 
b-"are you okay?" i leant back slightly to look at his face. 
c-"yeah, just..." he said basically shivering. 
b-"ohhh! i'm sorry, i didn't mean to." i apologised reactively after catching on. 
c-"i, it's fine."
b-"soooo, should i just get up and finish getting ready or..."
c-"i- i don't know." 
b-"how long do we have?"
c-"40minutes."
b-"okay so i'll do my makeup and you need to get ready as-well!"
c-"yep, i'll see you in 5minutes... maybe 10."
b-"see you then colby." i kissed him and stood up to walk to my vanity. 
c-"just give me a second."
b-"stay as long as you need."
c-"thanks."
i started doing my makeup and colby sat not saying anything just sitting staring at the wall with a pillow in his lap. i went for a simple gold glitter eyeshadow with a nude lip. i let everything set. colby rolled his head back, his chin up to the ceiling letting out a groan as he did.
(⚠️) b-"okay, you're teasing now." i went back over to him going back to my position i was in earlier. 
he looked at me smiling. 
c-"i didn't mean to but i'm not gonna say no."
i grabbed the sides of his head with my palms just under his ears dragging his face to me. i slammed my body onto him and my lips into his. raw heat radiated from us both, within seconds i could feel myself start to become sweaty. 
c-"okay that dress is expensive. i don't want to rip it."
b-"rip! is it that you saying something?"
c-"oh 100%."
i slipped the straps off my shoulders and pulled it up and off. i hung the dress on the hook of the door making sure it was locked before anything. i looked back and colby was stood with only his boxers on. 
b-"top drawer on the left you know this." he raced into my bathroom and back out within seconds with it in his hand. 
c-"35 minutes."
b-"there's a 30 minute extension on the bookings, don't worry." 
i dragged him close, chest to chest. i pushed my pelvis onto his, holding his waist. he ripped the condom packet open with his teeth. i dropped my underwear and kicked it to the side along with my bra, he did the same with his boxers. within seconds i was on the bed him hovering over me. he gave me the "you sure?" look as usual.  I nodded.
C-"bella, I'm gonna need you to use words, can you do that, for me?" holy fuck he was driving me insane
B-"yes, yes! YES!" 
C-"woah, not to loud."
after about 5 minutes i grabbed his back steadying myself.
c-"you got it?"
b-"I think so. you're the one in control, I'm just helping."
c-"i'm not 'in control', we're both in this as much as the other. you know that right?" 
b-"yeah." 
c-"good girl." OH MY GOD! do i have raging daddy issues? yes. did i think colby would actually know? not at all. did he? somehow, yes. 
colbys hands ran down the sides of my torso to my pelvis just lightly grasping it. i let out a small moan as he did. a smirk grew across his lips as i did.  I was still sweating and grabbing his back. I felt every, little, movement.
 he gripped tighter around my waist and i couldn't help it. i moaned again but a lot louder this time and in that moment it happened. I felt the warmth of  it rushing through me. I threw my head back in the pillow as it did, he continued for a few more seconds and I felt that warmth again and colby rolled to the right of me. after about 2 minutes laid in silence catching our breath colbys asked.
c-"so the grabbing?"
b-"i couldn't help it, it's not something i knew i had a 'thing' for before."
c-"no judgment, i liked it."
i rolled to face him. 
b-"really?"
c-"yeah." he grabbed my hip teasing. I let out a small squeak as I threw my face into his chest. As I moved back I said,
b-"okay, i- woah, i really do have a thing for it. is it embarrassing?"
c-"everyone has something, that's yours. so no ." i traced his protect the heart tattoo with my finger as he spoke. 
i slowly realised i wanted a tattoo. But what?
b-"i want a tattoo."
c-"okay, bit out of the blue. what of?"
b-"i don't know, i just want one."
c-"well i'm sure that you can get one but you need to know what."
b-"no. i want more than one."
c-"this seems very impulsive, are you sure?"
b-"yes."
c-"well right now you need to get re-ready, not tattooed, and i need to get ready."
b-"yes, GO!"
c-"um excuse me! i need clothes."
b-"to walk 3 steps down the hall?"
c-"im not risking it."
b-"go grab a towel from the cupboard."
c-"that works." he ran into the bathroom and wrapped it around his waist.
b-"just go! i'm gonna get cleaned up and dressed, i'll find you when im ready."
c-"sure that works."
he peaked through the door to make sure no one was there. 
b-"okay, go, go."
c-"im going!" he ran down the hall to his room.
b-"i want that towel back though!"
c-"SHH!"
b-"sorry!"
i closed the door got cleaned up and re-dressed. i fixed my hair and pulled on my boots. i grabbed my bag and threw my phone, wallet, keys and lipgloss in it. i took a deep breath and pulled the door open and walked to his room. i gave a gentle knock and slowly pushed the door open.
c-"who is it?"
b-"just me. you ready?"
c-"almost,just stay right there!"
b-"umm okay."
he came out of his bathroom in an all black suit. 
b-"i- wha- hu- yeah."
c-"so you like it?"
b-"a lot. it's amazing."
c-"well let's go bella."
b-"let's go colby."
he grabbed his phone and his wallet and threw them in his pocket. he held out his hand and walked me out of the room. 
b-"the dress really dose work on me, thanks."
c-"it dose, no problem."
b-"who's car are we taking?"
c-"umm yours! but i'm driving!" 
b-"sure i'm not gonna argue. i'd rather be driven around instead of diving myself."
c-"well that works in my favour. wait so you trust me with the dodge challenger? as in your prized possession srt? the matte black hellcat you love more than anything?" 
b-"i love her yes but not more than you, and i do trust you." we came to the top of the stairs.
c-"watch your step, i know you're clumsy."
b-"i am not! but thanks."
he placed his arm across my back as we walked down. 
c-"i'll just go tell them we're going."
b-"i'll come."
c-"sure." we walked through to the living room where everyone was sat. 
c-"okay we're off, see you later!"
b-"bye!"
k-"okay, can we just talk about that dress!"
b-"i know it's so pretty!"
k-"it looks so good!" 
b-"all thanks to colby, he bought it."
c-"i sure did." he stood behind me his hands on my waist. 
b-"and can we talk about his suit, it's so pretty!"
k-"i guess."
c-"you guess?"
k-"well it's just not my thing." i clenched my teeth at her.
b-"well we need to go, see you soon!" i said trying to get away from the conversation.
c-"bye bye!"
byes came from everyone and we walked outside to the car. 
c-"wait right here! i need to grab your present."
b-"no problem!"
he ran inside and grabbed the bag he set aside earlier. 
c-"let's go bel!"
b-"here's the keys!" i threw the keys over to him.
c-"gonna need those! thanks."
b-"i'm so excited!" i climbed in the car and colby did the same. 
c-"what did kat mean about the suit?"
b-"i think she just didn't like it, but that doesn't mean it doesn't look absolutely amazing!"
c-"yeah?"
b-"yeah." 
c-"well let's go."
b-"yes please! i'm insanely excited!"
c-"you should be!"
he started driving and eventually i put on some music. i scrolled through my playlist. eventually i found one of my favourite songs ever.

                            
                              
                                
                                
                              
                            
                            
                          
c-"what's this?"
b-"oh come on don't tell me you don't know oasis!"
c-"i'm sorry, never heard of them."
b-"just listen." 
the song played through and i sang it.
c-"not the worst song."
b-"okay how about..... this." 

                            
                              
                                
                                
                              
                            
                            
                          
c-"oh of course i know billie! you love her."
b-"yeah i do!"
the song played i sang my heart out and i sounded quite good and as it got to the chorus i looked over at him. 
b-"you with me. as long as i'm here no one can hurt you."
for about 2 seconds he looked at me. 
c-"don't make me cry!"
b-"oh, i didn't mean to. but this song means everything to me."
c-"i can't tell wether that's a good thing or a bad thing."
b-"i don't want to get soppy here but it's mixed. the song is important as it is basically the story of my life. but it's so beautiful."
c-"it really is, you have quite a voice as-well!"
b-"are you just saying that because it's me or because i actually do?"
c-"you do!"