Twelve

                                    

                                          

after dad picked me up I went straight to my room dad yelled my name but I just ignored it I jumped in my bed I heard flash voice in my head again
You know flash will kill them don't you?
And its all you fault
You couldn't keep you mouth shout
He's gonna kill them and after it all you other loved ones
And then you
You can't do anything about it
Youre weak
"Shut the fuck up" I said to myself I couldn't take it anymore the voice...flash voice in my head it was too much I got a flashback again
Flashback begin
I went out of school I wanted to go home when a car stopped next to me 
please don't let it be him I thought 
"get in penis Parker" flash said in a tone that didn't allowed a no so I opened the door and sat down next to him 
Of course it's always him that isn't a surprise anymore 
"where-where are we go-going?" I asked afraid 
"you find out soon enough" he said and drove  away
When he stopped driving it was already dark and I didn't know where we were flash pulled me out of his car into a dead end and then he pulled out a gun
He usually don't just have a gun carrying around...well I hope so...but I don't know for sure but for sure didn't use a gun or even aimed one at me until now.
"wha-what are you-do-doing flash?" I was sacred does he want to kill me? Or just hurt me? What does he want from me? 
"What's does it look like? I'm holding a gun at you face" 
"w-why?" 
He put the gun harder on my head he won't kill me right? Don't care if he would though 
"Don't ask questions parker just Put you shirt off " he said 
I swallowed 
"w-what?" 
"You heard me! Or do you want that i use the gun at you?" 
I shaked my head and  toke off my shirt flash grapped it 
"you pants as well" I was on the verge of tears as I pulled down my pants and flash grapped them as well 
"please flash" I begged 
"shut up" 
i was frezzing I had no idea what he wanted from me 
Flash pulled out a knive and I was so scared I couldn't move 
It wasn't the first time he used it but the snow and the fact that it was fucking cold and I was just in boxer shots freezing makes it worse than before I was helpless like so many times...I always was helpless when flash was there I was to scared to stand up to him because if I did it would turn out bad I'm not dumb so I just don't do anything and let him go it even when it hurts but I don't want my family or friend to die I don't care about me just about them.
"no please flash don't" I cried 
"you  so pathetic" he said as he began to stab a big wound on my back still holding the gun at me I cried I just wanted it to stop he just made this then he turned to face me 
"good luck finding your way home" he said as he run to his car and drive away leaving me only in boxers alone in the cold in the middle of January the streets full of snow I had no idea how to come back home
I had no idea where I was or how I would find my way back home but after maybe five hours  of walking,freezing and hidding so no one saw me like that I found back Home
Flashback end
Even when he isn't even there flash makes my live bad its true what he said I can't escape him ever he will always be there in my head  
I heard dad open my bedroom door I faced him he hold a paper in his hand 
"what's this?" I asked 
"Steve"
"Steve turned into a paper? Dad what did you do???"
"Hey! You was the one summoning him from the dead anyway Steve isn't the paper  it's just some business thing I mean how did you bring him back and why did it work"
"I already told you I don't know dad it's just happend maybe I can bring aunt Nat back though but I promised it not to do it without Harvey"
"Alright just be careful and is everything okay?" He asked worried i nodded he stayed up "anyway dinners ready" 
"I'm not hungry" i said  
"well I save some food for you then" he said as he closes the door
My phone buzzed I looked up who texted me there was a message from mj
Mj:
Yo Parker Tony said i could visit you with Ned tomorrow if that's okay with you?
I texted back:
Yeah sure you two can come see ya tomorrow 
Mj:
See ya Parker
I put my phone away and went to the kitchen I saw the plate dad left me i toke  it and then I heard the voice again 
You sure you want you to eat that?
Look at you!
You don't deserve food
You are a disappointment 
I put the plate back and went to my room again the voice was right i don't deserve food i  shouldn't eat I'm a disappointment i mean I couldn't save aunt may i couldn't even stand up for myself
I cried myself to sleep.