CHAPTER 44- TEARS

                                    

                                          

Jayden's pov
I ditched all the classes after that and run away from there in my fullest speed. The only thing i wanted was to forget the pain away even if it's for sometime but i couldn't. Levi, my wolf was in rage and was howling in agony. 
I placed the hand over my chest where throbbing in pain. "Mia is Elijah's mate." I mumbled, trying hard to make myself believe the true fact but the thought of them being together was making it even more painful. I gulped another shot in one go, not want to sober up.
I can still remember, the day i saw Mia for the first time at the age of seven. Her nervous big eyes and pink chubby cheeks.We becomes friends faster than the others. There wasn't any boundaries between us. But something started to change in times. It was normal for me to walk around half naked infront of Mia. I wasn't bothered nor cared and i thought Mia too, until i noticed her face getting red and blush creeping on her soft cheeks at the sight of me shirtless. So i did it again. It was meant to be just a teasing or just to make her more flustered. I liked to see the blush on her face and the way she trying hard to pretend she wasn't staring, but i was enjoying it more than i ever imagined.
I was half-naked in the living room doing pushups while arguing with Aaron about some ridiculous shit. My hair was pushed back with a hairband, hindering my long hair from falling into my eyes. The distinctive muscles move whenever i pushes myself up. I could see from the corner of eyes, Mia looking at me pretending to read a book, from the couch.
"Mia...." I whines
"Y-Yeah?" She ask startled and pink stain coated her cheeks immediately. 
"Tell Aaron, i am right."
"He is right, Aaron." Mia murmur and i smirk in victory. 
"See, told ya!" I cheers shrugging Aaron's deathly glare and walk towards Mia, who was biting her lips worried for choosing my side. I puts my hands over Mia's shoulder and pulls her close to my warm chest, in the way of protecting Mia from Aaron's glare.
"Of course, you two are against me!" Aaron shakes his head defeatedly, arms throw in air, making me laugh. 
I know Mia can't say no to me, never.
I looked down and see Mia's pink stained face, i know she was blushing. But i shrugged it, like always, because all these were just a teasing. She was just someone i need to protect, a friend, a family.
I ignored and avoided the uncertain feelings in my heart for her. I afraid to name those feelings of mine. She was meant to be a sister and she deserves better. 
But down to my heart, even i tried to avoid and hide, i know Mia wasn't only just someone i needed to protect. She was something more. Someone who can make my heart beat faster, someone who makes me crazy just from her sweet scent, someone who can makes me happy without any reasons. Now, when i can name what my feelings are, but everything seems too late. I thought she will be mine, always and forever.
How could Mia be Elijah's mate?. It is impossible!. She can't be no one else but mine. Until now i didn't thought about being apart from Mia. She was like a part of mine, always with me and will be but seeing her being someone else broke my heart into pieces. Is she happy to have an Alpha mate?. Maybe she was.....
A lump formed in my throat and could only blink the tears away. Maybe i was being selfish to wish to have her myself, even after she is happy with Elijah. They both are happy and likes each other. They are both mates and destined to be together afterall. I drank untill i lost the count of how many, only want to forget everything. Would Mia be my mate if i were an Alpha?. I sighed thinking about my pathetic self. She wanted a real Alpha and not me. But it was hard for me to believe, all those blushes i seen on her face, was just my imagination. Was it?. She doesn't feels anything towards me?
I was hardly standing straight when i entered the pack house. It was past midnight and the pack house was extremely silent. Did everyone sleep early already?. I was walking searching my room through the blurry vision of mine. The dizziness was making it even more harder. 
I stumbled back tripping on my leg and was going to fall on the ground but looked up when i didn't. Mia was supporting me taking my hands over her shoulder. My heart felt giddy seeing her so close but it disappeared when i remember she is someone else's, not mine. I wasn't allowed to wish anything more with her. She has a mate, moreover a strong one among them. She is just helping a friend because she feels pity to me and nothing more!.
"Mia, w-why are y-ou up this l-ate?." I asks masking my hurt. She doesn't need to know how hurt i am. 
"Why are you drunk, jay?And where were you? How many times i called you! Why weren't you picking up the calls?. I-I.... E-Everyone was worried, you know?" She asks avoiding my question making me chuckle. I blinked my eyes, a several times, noticing the blush on her cheeks. Again my eyes are playing the tricks on me!!.
"W-Why are y-ou treating me so nicely, Mia? If y-ou treat me t-this good i will m-misunderstand, y-ou know?."
"What?"
I laughed it off seeing her surprised face. What the heck am i speaking?. Why am I ruining her most beautiful day?.
"Just f-forget, what i said. By the way c-congratulations on finding your mate!. I am r-really happy for you." I said trying not to stutter but fails. It wasn't that, i don't want to happy for her. But my heart hurted like, it was ripping apart.
"Y-You are really happy that i found my mate?" She asks once again staring straight at my eyes. She looked shocked for some unknown reason. Her words was sharp and those eyes held something behind it.
"What makes you think that, i am not happy for you?. You found your other half ,your happiness and someone who can protect you. Elijah is an Alpha. He is really perfect for you, if we excluded some of his hot tempers." I said forcing a smile hiding all my emotions.
"You are glad that i found my mate?.You don't feel anything at all?" She paused taking a deep breath."Or are you pretending not to know anything?" She shouts, tears in her eyes.
"W-what? W-Why are you crying Mia?. Don't cry!. Did i said anything w-wrong?" I said panicked, seeing tears that are now soaking her cheeks wet. She looks hurt and was biting her lips so hard to stop the tears, looking down at her feet.
"Don't mistake me, Mia. It's true that i wasn't in good terms with Elijah before, But that doesn't mean i won't accept him as your mate. All that matters for me is your happiness. I know you are happy with him. I did really expected a mark on you when i arrives but why didn't he marke-" i was cutt off by the slap on my face from her. I looked up in disbelief holding my cheeks to meet with her red and swollen eyes.
"ENOUGH!. I thought you.....you also feels the same way as me but i was wrong. I am an idiot who thought it will bother you but...... Anyway you are right!. I am really happy to have an Alpha like Elijah as my mate and sorry for being a trouble. Don't worry! i won't bother you anymore." She says biting her lips looking deeply at me before running away leaving me alone at the darkness. I could only look down with teary eyes. There isn't anything i can do anyway, even if i wish. I should try to accept the fact that Mia isn't mine from now on. 
She is someone else!