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"For how long have we been like this?" I ask as soon as we pull away after yet another kiss.
                          


                          
"Far too long I believe." She smiles and leans in for another kiss.
                          


                          
Since we came back from Central Park, we been making out. I was seated on the couch with her seated on my lap facing me. Her lips and mines barely space keeping us away from each other and big smiles on our faces.
                          


                          
"I like this." I confess in between kisses.
                          


                          
She smiles and kisses me once again. My arms wrap around her waist pulling her into my chest even more.
                          


                          
"Harry?" She asks making me look up at her.
                          


                          
"Yeah?" I ask.
                          


                          
"What are we?" She asks.
                          


                          
I let a breath out through my mouth unsure of how should I answer the question.
                          


                          
I have some things clean. I liked her and I loved what we have. But I can't be a boyfriend. I have never been and I will never be.
                          


                          
"I'm not a boyfriend." I say.
                          


                          
I looked for her reaction and saw how she nodded her head analyzing the new information.
                          


                          
"I understand." She says with a sad look. "Just because we kissed that doesn't mean you have to date me."
                          


                          
"I told you once that I come with a big burden. I can try but I can't promise you anything. My life...my life hasn't been easy and that stills affect me nowadays. I don't know if I will ever be able to be with you in a relationship. What we have already surprises me. I have never been this close with anyone." I tell her.
                          


                          
"Are you really willing to try for me?" She asks.
                          


                          
"I promise I'll try but you have to promise me you will be patient with me. It's going to be a difficult process, I can feel it." I say looking into her eyes.
                          


                          
"Knowing you will try is enough for me." She smiles.
                          


                          
"So I guess we can consider that our relationship is on the getting to know each other step?" I ask her.
                          


                          
"That's fine by me." She says with a big smile.
                          


                          
"Good because I don't want to lose you." I say as I ran my fingers through her hair.
                          


                          
"Good because I don't want to lose you too." She says with a big smile.
                          


                          
She leaned down and our lips touched. Fire ignited within the kiss. I think I am becoming addicted to this feeling.
                          


                          
"I'm scared Violet." I confess when we pull away.
                          


                          
"I'm here Harry. You don't have to be scared." She says while caressing my cheek.