Chapter 16

                                    

                                          
I almost kissed Gavin ms and Gavin almost kissed.   Oh my god why would I do that. Now he knows and what about the bat? Is it still on?  Now I'm more confused and I don't know how to fucking feeling 
The  plane and bus ride home was weird.  We had to sit next to each other and just silence even when we got home.   
Went I got home I payed on the couch.  Tristian looked at me 
' what's wrong you you?'  He asked
' me and Gavin almost kissed  and now he's ignoring me '.   He laughs 
'. What's so funny?'    My head still in the coach. ' you want me and it's cute also about time'.  He says 
I get up.  ' what am I supposed to do talk to him and act like it didn't happen' 
' no maybe oh maybe tell him how you feel so that way you two can stop staring at each other all goddamn day'.   Tristan right he may be an dummy sometimes but once it comes to love and everything else's he's a  fucking genius   
It's has been 3 days and still ignoring me even At school.  He doesn't even look at me?  Gavin Collins is driving me crazy.   Monica. Sees me stress out.  
'. Hey Kira'.   She says I turned to her 
Why is she talking to me? And why she seems calm? This is weird.  ' hi Monica-what do you want?'  I asked her   
' I want to say I'm sorry for everything I've put you threw and I was suck a dick and I'm sorry I'm was jealous of you and Gavin'.  Wow Monica west saying sorry?  Is this prank or something.    ' it's okay I have gotten over it' I said    She pulled up her sleeve and I see her bruises from Peter 
'. I'm so sorry'.   I hugged her  
We talked about it   Peter suck a sick person.    No one knew about it because her friends left her.   And her parents doesn't notice her.      
' we should talk more'. I said she smokes.  ' I agree I don't know why I was so mean to you'.      
'. It's just it's the past don't worry about it'.     We laughed I see Gavin talking to somebody   ' why he's ignoring you?'  She asked.   ' because in New York we almost kissed and we haven't talked since then'. I sigh
' talk to him you two deserve each other you make him happy don't lose him '. She says and the bell rings. And I went to class 
During free period Gavin is on his phone.     ' why you ignoring Kira?' Hudson said he got startled.  '  bro where the fuck you come from?' He asked   
'   I'm everywhere but answer the question'. He said.    ' I mean we almost kissed and now everything kind of feels weird'. The boys started walking 
'. For a person who wants her so bad you not doing anything about it and ignoring her is no helping' he said Gavin thought about it for a second he knows that Kira is the love of his life.   Even though he young. He knows it's a spark that they have that's undeniable 
Like berry and iris from the flash that's like his lighting rod he needs her and she needs him if he knows or not      '  you're right I love her and I can't lose her' he says.   Hudson nod his head in agreement 
' how did you ask Solana out or how did you know she the one?' He asked  he sighs 'the way she looks me. How she can open up about things and I don't feel like I'm going to judge.  She a good kisser.  And it's. Spark ' 
Kira all those things to him.   And he knows that.  Time for him to make it right 
After school.  I went home.   me andI Solana. Are chilling    
'. S,  why is love so hard?'   I asked 
' it's only hard if you make it hard'
' but I don't want to get hurt again physically and mentally'.   
I sigh 
' Gavin won't hurt you I know that he's your everything don't fuck it up'.  
Everybody today make me realize how bad at love I am and how much I really feel about Gavin 
Time for some thinking.  went to skate park and thought about some things it's been 3 days and I miss Gavin yes  I miss our conversations in English I miss laughing with l Jim  hugging him, talking about our day, skating with him everything I miss him. 
I'll do anything to our relationship back friends or more then friends 
He may be an idiot sometimes but he's my idol   I love him yes that's a strong word I use wisely but I love him
I tried. Doing an nightmare flip I've been skating for 11 years and I still can't do it. I almost fell until somebody catch me 
' sup ms.clumsy'
'. That's my new nickname now' 
' I mean if you want it to be'. I pulled me up 
'. Yeah I don't think that's going to work'
' you don't like? It fits you ms.clumsy that falls everywhere ' 
'You're an idiot." I  rolled your eyes at Gavin .  "At least I know how to do a Nightmare flip " He laughed.
 'I'm not that good at skating ."
I crossed your arms.
"You've bee skateboarding for since you were 7 years old   and you still don't know how to do a Nightmare flip?" He smirked.
"It's not that funny!" I  said, annoyed.
"It's actually hilarious."
"You upset me." I  stared at him. 
" you know you miss me."
*I really didn't ."
". So you didn't miss me?" He looked at me .
" not a single tiny bit'.  
I looked at him 
.
" you know we didn't finish what we started"
He smirked again
' what'
' Kira we almost kissed we might as well finish what he started'   
'  I don't want to kiss you'
' you know you're into me' 
'   What about bet'
' what about it?'
' do you only want to kiss me become of the bet'
' it never about the bet only about you only you and my feelings I have for you   '.     
I brought his face up to mine . He smiled and looked at me 
"Don't look at me like that pretty boy ".    " congrats you won Kira you won the bet
He said, leaning in to kiss.  ' but  the difference is I don't want you to leave me alone' 
We smile and he leaned in  to kiss me