I then went into the bathroom, locked the door, and quickly got dressed. Afterwards I headed into the living room, where they all sat on the sofas. Will and Joe had both guitars on their laps and it seemed like they were composing some things. It seemed like no one had realized I was there, so I quietly walked back into Wilbur's bedroom. I didn't want to interrupt, nor to annoy them, so I decided to just leave them alone. I looked at Wilbur's bed, thinking if I should lay down. I wasn't sure if he would be alright with me laying in there, but he said we would switch tonight so he would sleep on the couch, what meant I had to sleep in his bed. So it would be fine, right? I sighed as I lay down, taking out my phone to check social media pages. I smiled as I opened Twitter, since I instantly saw a pictures of my streams. Wether they were real pictures they got from me or fanart, everything I saw was nice.
A lot people complimented me on my look. A lot people thought I was pretty, while a lot other people just hated against me. They said terrible things about me. As much as I wanted to believe the people that were complimenting me, I just couldn't. The only thing my brain noticed was all the hate. How they all said I was ugly, how they all said I was doing shit content. Holy, it was just my second stream! A lot people told me to stay away from Wilbur as well. I hated it. I didn't want to leave Wilbur, but my brain kept telling me they were telling the truth. That he probably doesn't really want to be with me. That he doesn't like me, and is just doing this for... for whatever reason. What was right and what was wrong? I couldn't tell anymore. I could just feel how I teared up. I didn't want to cry. What if someone would walk in? No, they probably wouldn't. It was Wilbur's room and they were busy right now after all.
I started to sob as the tears started streaming down my face. I was still scrolling around Twitter, seeing even more of the hate comments. Fuck, was I really that horrible? "y/n? y/n what happened?" I heard Wilbur's voice say. I didn't bother turning around to him. I just turned my phone out and lay it next to me. I could hear how the door fell into it's lock, so we were alone. "Hey, calm down okay? What happened?" he asked softly as he sat down next to me. I slowly sat up. I was still crying. "Come here" he said, embracing me into a warm hug. Oh what a crybaby I was. I was always going to him with my problems. Why can't I just stop it? I shouldn't bother him anymore with... just all of this. I still let me fall into his hug though. Just to feel safe, just to get comfortable. But suddenly the comments came back to my mind. I should get away from him. I wasn't good for him.
I parted from him and moved a bit away, what caused a confused look on his face. "What's wrong?" he asked. I had stopped crying a little. "I- I'm sorry" I just said, wiping my tears away. Just don't bother him. It probably annoys him. Or it doesn't. He told me before he doesn't mind listening to me. "y/n, come on please. You don't have to be sorry. Not for crying. So please tell me, what happened?" he said. He seemed to worry a lot right now. I looked up to him. "I- I don't want to annoy you. I'm fine, just go back to the others" I said. "No, I won't leave until you told me what's wrong. I mean... I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable, but I don't want to leave you like this" he said, his voice still soft, but also full of worry. "I- I have just seen what people are saying about me. They- they all hate me, Wilbur. They hate how I look, they hate what I do. They even tell me to get away from you. I- I don't know what to believe anymore. Who to trust" I explained, stumbling a bit over my words.
"y/n, don't worry about it. That you get away from me would be the last thing I would want. It's normal you have haters, everyone has. They are most likely just jealous of you. Don't think about them too much. Or not at all. Just ignore them, okay? You have a lot fans already, that's worth way more" he said as he came a bit nearer to me. I looked up to him. Was he telling the truth? He wouldn't be lying to me like this, right? I sighed and finally gave in, letting me being pulled into a hug. "I care about you, y/n. Please stop thinking you annoy me in any way, because you don't. You could never" he whispered as he hugged me even tighter. I just nodded, wrapping my arms around him as I buried my face in his chest. He started humming a song. I didn't know which one, yet it still helped me to calm down. "T- thank you Wilbur. I'm just so scared to do something wrong" I said.
"You won't. And even if you would, what will not happen, I promised you to stay with you" he answered. I smiled at that. That promise really meant a lot. We just on the bed for a while. Still in the same position. His arms wrapped around me while I have wrapped my arms around his torso, my face buried in his chest and me sitting nearly on his lap. "What do you want to do? Do you want to stay here?" he asked after about ten minutes later, whereupon I nodded. I was tired and I felt like I would fall asleep any second. "Yeah" I just simply answered. "Do you mind me going back to the others? Or do you want me to stay here with you? Both would be fine" he assured me. I thought for a while about it. I would like him spending more time with me, but I knew we were actually here so they could concentrate on their music. "You can go back, don't worry. I will probably sleep a little, if you don't mind"
He smiled "Why would I mind. Just probably don't look at Twitter today, okay?" I nodded in agreement. He was right, that wouldn't be the best. "Alright, get some rest, I will be in the living room. If you need something, don't mind asking" he said as his grip around me was loosening. "Okay, have fun with your music. I heard a bit of it and it already sounds good" I said, smiling a little at him. "Really? Thank you" he responded, also with a smile. Then he walked out, closing the door behind him. I just slipped under the covers, since I was really getting tired. I soon heard them playing something again. This time it wasn't just some experiments though, they played a song I knew. I needed a while to realize which song it was, until I noticed it was 'Do me a Favor' by the arctic monkeys. I smiled as I closed my eyes. I listened to their music, to Wilbur's singing, but soon sleep took over me and I fell asleep.
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"y/n? y/n wake up, you need to eat something" Wilbur whispered as he lightly stroke my arm. I slowly opened my eyes, looking directly at Wilbur. "How long have I slept?" I asked and yawned. "I think one and a half hour, probably two. But you need to eat something, then you can go back to sleep" he responded. I nodded as I sat up, stretching and yawning once again. I stood up and we walked together into the living room, where Joe, Ash and Mark sat with each a bowl of food. Wilbur got two bowls that stood on the counter and handed me one. "Thank you, who cooked?" I asked as I sat down with Will. "Ash" Joe answered. I nodded and started eating. It was very good. They were watching the Simpsons again. I guess they like it. I can't complain though, it is quite funny. I just ate my food. I was happy when I saw that I was able to finish it another time. I was still tired though, so I probably would probably go to bed again.
After some more time where I sat with the others in the living room, still watching the Simpsons, I decided to go to bed again. My day was kinda tough and I just wanted to relax a little. "Okay guys, I'll be back in the bedroom since I'm tired" I said as I stood up. "Okay, good night y/n" Wilbur answered. "Good night, do you mind us playing a bit more?" Joe asked. "I don't care, I like listening to it" I responded with a smile. I just got a quick 'good night' from Ash and Mark, before I headed into Wilbur's bedroom. I then just quickly walked into the bathroom where I got ready. Once I was, I lay down in the bed, snuggling into the bed. I kind of wanted to go on social media pages, but I reminded myself that it would probably not be a good idea. I just lay my phone on the bedside table and soon I drifted off to sleep.
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My god I'm not getting these done quick:') Also, I think this book will come to an end soon, I'm sorry, but I hope it was a good one to read for you<3 Have a good morning/day/night :D
- Luma