V

                                    

                                          
CHAPTER V
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IT WAS LATE, and all that was on my mind was Zhongli and our interaction earlier.
Nothing made sense to me anymore, why would he say those words to me? Was it all just a joke?
I feel my phone buzz and pick it up, the visible frown turning into a smile as I read the notification.
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Scaramouche
HIM
go to bed
ME
How'd you know I was up
HIM
spider senses 
ME
Very interesting
What are you up to?
HIM
stroking my dick
ME
What
Are you being serious
Like are you joking 
HIM
yes ofc i was joking
why would i text YOU out of all people during such a sacred time 
ME
Didn't you tell me that you wanted to fuck me so badly that you would come to Liyue in a heartbeat
HIM
YOU TOLD ME TO BREED YOU
ME
I WAS HORNY OKAY?
HIM
so was i
ME
you told me to have your kids 
HIM
YOU SAID YOU WANTED THEM
ME
It's been a while since I last saw a guy with the intention of having sex 
HIM
i wish i could relate
i get absolutely 0 play
ME
HOW???
YOU ARE HOTTER THAN MOST GUYS HERE
HIM
i'm a solid 6 in inazuma 
ME
No ways
You would be a 9 in Liyue 
HIM
yeah and you would be a 10 here too 
not saying you're not a 10 already
ME
You are so sweet
Like genuinely are so nice to me
HIM
why would i be rude to you?
there's not a single reason as to why i shouldn't be 
you're like perfect 
ME
I just thought I wasn't worth your time that's all
HIM
you are worth every second of it i promise you
i prefer staying up talking to you than staying up with my thoughts
i love you 
"I love you."
Such a powerful phrase 
Why use it on me?
Isn't it too early?
I don't know what to do...
ME
I love you too
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I turned off my phone and stared up at my ceiling, thinking of what I had just done.
"My life is shit because I deserve it right?" I said out loud, but nobody responded.
It's not a big deal to tell someone you love them, but I find it such a powerful phrase, something I wouldn't find myself telling anyone anytime soon.
After Zhongli, I don't think I've found comfort in anyone else, and I'm not implying that I do now, it's just quite a lot.
I have no control over what Scaramouche thinks or says, but I have control over how I respond to him, but why didn't I feel a grip on myself when I sent that message back? 
I felt unconscious, not even being able to register what he just said, and I just responded like that!
I'm not mad, I'm just confused.
I still love Zhongli, why am I moving on so quickly?
I'MA FUCK UP MY LIFE.
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@SCYKHS