"Good morning to you too Quaritch." I smiled sarcastically. I opened the file quickly looking it over. Tommy's twin brother, Jake Sully is plaster all over it. I look up at Quaritch with a confused look. I watch as C.J. drop his bowl, my hand shoots out catching it. A bit of oatmeal slips onto my hand and I place the bowl back in front of C.J.
"Be careful." I tell him gently as I put a straw in his milk carton. C.J. grabs into his milk with a smile and nods his head. 
"What's with that stupid look on your face?" I asked the man sitting across from me. He chuckles at me and shakes his head softly. 
"Nothing kid." He paused as he pointed at the file. "This is Jake Sully, Tommy's brother." I raise my brows.
"I can see that, why is this file in front of me?" Quaritch doesn't answer me. I take a sip of my coffee, it's bitter. 
"Tommy's dead, they're bringing Jake in to use the avatar Tom would have used." 
The worlds seems to go quiet as I catch the bowl again. Tommy's dead... he's gone. Tommy had always been a part of my new life. He'd been the one to make sure my Na'vi would be mission ready in time. I would teach him about the plants and animals life on Pandora while he would teach me the language. 
"And what the fuck am I supposed to do with this?" I mumbled softly. I look up meeting Quaritch's eyes, I could feel the pity. It moved in waves towards me.
"After your lessons you're gonna pick him up from his shuffle, bring him back here." He explained to me. I stare at him as I grab at a napkin. I clean uo C.J. messy face and pick him up. I stand while C.J. climbs into my back.
"Does Grace know yet?" I ask softly. Quaritch shrugs, I guess not. C.J. nuzzles his head into my neck and hugs my neck. Quaritch squeezes his cheek, then he walks away without another word. 
On my earth 5 years ago I would have cried at this news. 
But I didn't have time to cry, not here, not now
I wasn't a scared little girl anymore, I couldn't be
I clean up our food and place the trays by the washing station. From my side view I see Max walking towards me. His soft eyes are gentle as he moves to me. 
"Hey Y/n, do you want me to take. C.J.? I'll bring him to the lab I nod softly at Max. I ate him down and C.J. takes the scientists hand with a smile. 
"Did you see me Uncle Max? I'm a koala." He giggles. The pair begin to walk away as Max waves goodbyes
"Be good for mama." I yelled as they disappeared. I let out a shaky sigh as I rubbed my sweaty palms on my pants. Quickly I turned and left. I wandered outside going to the training area. There was Corporal Lyle wearing his oxygen mask waiting for me. 
I'd alway been called by some nick name. 
I had so many I'd lost track 
Maybe that's why I never got to mad about them, they reminded me of home. 
My real home
"Ready girly?" He asks. He used that stupid nickname. Maybe this was the one nickname I didn't really like. Girly, I couldn't be girly anymore. I couldn't wear cute sundresses, or read cheesy romance books anymore. I was anything but girly now. 
Annoyed I grab at my AVR-M60, and aim at the targets. Each time they get further and further away. I hit them all quickly, like I've done this thousands of times. I have. I move the gun and look at him with a bored expression.