35) Pulses of Midnight

                                    

                                          
In all honesty, Saki hadn't been expecting to sleep that night. They had struggled to sleep the day before after hearing the story of Kana and Kage Shiraki for the first time, and the issues only persisted into their second night of knowing the truth of everything that had brought them up to this point. There had been so much of Saki's own history packed up into that story that they barely knew what to do with themselves. They understood so much now, but they couldn't help wondering if perhaps it would have been better for them to remain in the dark about it all given how terrible most of it was. 
Saki had a sister figure before they were even born. Well, that was the way it should have been, at the very least, but intervention from the Digital World and Kage had stopped all of that from playing out the way it should have. Beyond that, Miriamon was confident that Saki's parents had died because they were involved with the Digital World's investigation by looking into Kage's disappearance for so many years. She didn't know the details behind their deaths since Saki hadn't been present to hear the truth in the first place. They had simply been told after their parents passed on that something had happened, and they had chased the truth for years before finally finding that they were right. Something had gone wrong. They just couldn't pin down the details beyond that. 
Saki was more than happy with leaving all of that in the past for the time being though. They had no doubt that they would return to the search for information about what happened to their parents one day, but in the meantime, they were too exhausted to pursue it fully. Beyond that, the Void Fragments required their attention too desperately for them to fully take a break to focus on something else like that. Stalling by learning more about Miriamon had already put them behind to the point of the Void Fragment attacks getting worse and Hinoka and Chiaki almost dying in a targeted strike. Saki refused to make that mistake again, especially now that the Legendary Warriors had a guaranteed way to find the mastermind and take them out. 
That wasn't to say Saki blamed themselves for everything that had happened. They couldn't have known the world was going to take advantage of them being distracted to target the people they cared about, and they weren't going to criticize themselves for not understanding something they couldn't have known. That was inefficient and a waste of time, and self-pity did not solve problems. Saki was going to have to take this into their own hands and find the mastermind first. After that, they could get back to searching for the truth behind what really happened to their parents. 
They trusted Miriamon's judgement when she said their parents had died because of their involvement with the Digital World. Nobody would have known the truth better than her. If she was convinced the Digital World's existence and their research into it had ultimately claimed their lives, then Saki was sure that had to be true. They had no idea what to do with that information though, especially since the one who had ordered their deaths had to know about the Digital World too. There was an unsettling thought they didn't even want to consider. Most of the world was in blissful ignorance about the Void Fragment Digimon and monster attacks, and they didn't even know what their assailants were really called. 
But the one who had seen Saki's parents killed knew all of that and then some. They had to be aware of a lot more than they were letting off. Nobody Saki had ever met seemed to know more than they should have though, and without a hint like that, they had no way of figuring out who was responsible for what had happened all those years ago. If they tried to find the truth as things were now, they would have been fumbling around in the dark, and Saki knew better than to try something like that. They would just have to be patient. They were just glad the world being terrible to them for so long had taught them that virtue. 
Saki let out a slow and heavy sigh before rolling over in their bed. Sleeping in the Digital World was comfortable in a way sleeping on Earth never had been. Even though there was always the risk of a potential monster attack, Saki feared the monsters of the Digital World a lot less than they feared the monsters of Earth. There was a headache they just didn't want to put up with no matter what. They had dealt with those more than enough to last a lifetime in their opinion.