Chapter 15

                                    

                                          
It was mid night. Teju was lying beside her sleeping son. But she couldn't fall asleep. Thousands of thoughts running in her mind. 
She was in dilemma. She wasn't able to decide anything. But she knew one thing that whatever she decided, Karan would accept it.
"Please God. Help me. What should I do? If I don't give our relationship a chance, it will snatch Duggu's chance at having a complete family. And if I give our relationship a chance for the sack of Duggu, it will be unfair to both of us. If we ever reconcile then Duggu won't be the only reason. I want us to be together for both of us and our love not for only Duggu." 
With a lot of thoughts running in her mind, she thought to go out to take some fresh air. She wore her slippers and took her phone. Making sure Duggu was asleep, she went down and sat on one of the bench in the park adjacent to the hotel where they were staying.
She was looking at the moon in the night sky so lost in her thoughts that she didn't sense the presence behind her. 
It was Karan. He had seen her sitting on the bench through the window of his room. Without thinking further he went out of the building stepping closer to her he took a seat beside her on the same bench maintaining distance between them.
"Still a selenophile huh?" Karan asked her drawing her attention. 
His voice startled her. She turned to find Karan sitting next to her.
"Ah- you asked something?" Teju asked. 
"Yeah. What were you thinking about?"
"But you asked something else."
"Haa. Maine kuch aur pucha tha but tum batao, where were you lost? Itna kya soch rahi thi jo mere batoo pe dhyan hi nahi gaya?" 
"Nothing. I was just admiring the moon."
"You are a terrible lier. You know that?"
Teju looked at him as she couldn't find any perfect reply. So she just turned away.
Karan sighed. He knew it won't be easy to convince her. He got up then kneeled in front of her. He held both of her hands making her look at him.
"I know tum kya soch kya rahi ho." He stated. 
"Then mujhe kyu puch rahe ho?" Teju retorted. 
"I asked you because I want you to tell me what's in your mind? Yeh descision hum dono ke life ka hai. Don't you think it will be better if we both talk it out and then decide? Ese hum dono alag alag kya kare, kya na kare sochne se kuch solve nahi hoga. Hum dono ki life ki important descision hai hum dono sath me le toh hi accha hoga." 
Teju couldn't help but agree with him because she knew well that he was wright. His words were making sense. So she intently listened to him.
"Mujhe dhyan se suno, phir tum jo bhi descision logi I'll accept. Okay?" Karan asked softly.
Teju nodded.
"Hume alag hue 5 sal ho gaye hai. Bohot sare changes aye hai in 5 salo mein. Mein pehle jesa nahi hu aur nahi tum. Humme bohot sare changes aye hai but we never stopped loving each other. We were angry at each other but we never hated each other."
"Hume bichde hue 5 sal ho gaye hai. 5 years is a long period. Do you really think our feelings for each other remained same?"
"Tumhe yeh bat apne ap se puchna chahiye. But koi nahi main hi jawab deta hu, tum aj bhi mujhse utna hi pyar karte ho jitna pehle karte the. And trust me Main bhi tumse pehle jesa hi pyar karta hu. If not more then not less either."