What's My Worth

                                    

                                          
Ellie Leywin
"Mom, why am I not as strong as Arthur and Veer?" I looked at my mother before she left the room. It was bedtime, but I didn't want to sleep alone. I usually had Veer in here with me, so it feels weird with him gone.
"Oh, Ellie." My mother made her way to my bed and sat. "Arthur and Veer are different, when it comes to strength, you know that." She paused and started to rub my head. "Don't compare yourself to them, it will only cause you pain. You'll get there one day, just not as quickly as them."
"But why is that?!" I did get frustrated when I thought about how strong they were. "Why am I the only sibling without a mana core yet? Why am I so weak compared to them? Look at Arthur he is already out there being an adventurer."
"I know Ellie, it's hard to cope with, but the only thing you can do is wait." That angered me more, all I could do was wait. Arthur was going into dungeons, and Veer was in Elenoir training to tame his Beast Will. Whereas I was sitting at home trying to forge my core, it made me feel like a failure.
"There has to be something I can do, mom." I sat up and pushed my head into her chest, she wrapped her arm around me. "I'm fine with being the weakest Leywin child, I just want to be at a level I can be proud of."
"You'll get there, Ellie, all in due time." My mother's words did not help me, but she didn't seem to have any advice for me except to wait. "I don't know how your brothers awakened at such a young age; kids usually awaken between the ages of eight to twelve. The fact that both of them did awaken at the age of three or younger is unheard of, it makes me feel like the two of them aren't being completely honest with us."
"What do you mean they're not being honest with us?" I could see why she might have thought that, but I wanted to hear her opinion. 
"Arthur has unbelievable strength, you know that, and he has this weird ability to figure out stuff that nobody in this world could ever do, like helping Lilia and you form a mana core. I just don't understand how." I knew that Arthur was a genius, that was all it was. He was just born to be awesome. "And Veer, he awakened before Arthur, but you know that Veer isn't like Arthur when it comes to fighting."
"He tries to be." Veer trained a lot on his own, even at night sometimes I think about him. I remember when he accidentally dropped a flame and burnt the side of his bed. Mother still doesn't know about that.
"Yes, he does, Veer was a troublemaker though, but very intelligent. He didn't have the strength like Arthur, but it feels like he knows more than he admits."
"I guess I can see that, but Veer and Arthur are very different don't you think. They both have tremendous powers when it comes to magic, but Arthur is a lot more serious when it comes to other stuff. I don't think I've ever seen Veer mad, not even once. He's always smiling or watching everything that goes on." My younger brother was always having fun.
"Yeah, your right." My mother laughed. "Veer is never in a bad mood, which does worry me."
"Why?"
"When he does get in a bad mood, what will it be like?"
"That's if he ever gets in a bad mood." I paused and thought about the future. "Hopefully I awaken, and he and I go to Xyrus Academy together, we'll have a blast there. I can't wait."
"Him being with Elder Virion right now worries me, he gets in to so much trouble. So, if he goes to the academy I'll worry even more. That kid has a tendency to burn things down." We both started to laugh, picturing Veer burning something.
"Yeah, I can see him getting in trouble at school." I paused for a second. "That's if my mana core ever forms."
"Arthur said that it will, he wasn't sure about Lilia's though. I wouldn't worry about it not forming, if Arthur told you it was going to form, I'm sure it will." I guess my older brother wouldn't lie to me, unlike Veer who most defiantly would.
"I know." I told her, as she got up from my bed.
"All in time, Ellie. Now, get some rest, stop thinking about it." She had a serious face on when she told me to go to sleep. 
"When will I determine my bedtime?" I pouted at her.
"All in time." She smiled as she left the room.
I closed my eyes and tried to go to sleep, but it was difficult while the future was on my mind. Why was I so different from my brothers? Could I even catch up to them? It didn't seem possible, Arthur was stronger than most adults, and Veer was getting there.
I don't even know how to fight, and I can't use magic either. Was I the dud of the family?
No, I need to just work hard on forming my core, after that I'll go from there. I can't compare myself to my brothers, I need to focus on me, and me alone. I'll get strong in my own way, so that I can watch their backs.
I already know Veer will have enemies at school, because he messes around so much. I can already see him getting into fights at school with other students. 
No one will pick a fight with Arthur, so I'm not too worried about him. He'll probably be the strongest student there, but I can see him having trouble making friends since he was strong. It may scare people away.
Okay, I need to go to bed, I can't stay up any longer or I'll be tired tomorrow morning. I closed my eyes and pushed the thoughts of the future away.