Who is lying???

                                    

                                          
~~Advika~~
It's been 2 days since my marvellous engagement. Never in my lifetime have I thought that I would be engaged again. That too to a stranger. The only man that I ever know and that I ever dreamed off is Viraj. 
But see what was written in my fate and now I have decided to not even think of that. Because I know it only drains my energy. So I have decided to just go with the flow because whatever might happen ahead… I know for sure that I will have a safe landing in the form of my Papa. 
But what kept on eating my brain from the last 2 days is Jaiveer's reaction. The way he snatched his hand away, the way his jaw clenched are making me suspicious.
Isn't he ready? Or is there anything that I'm actually missing?
I sighed. From the last 2 days my brain hasn't stopped turning its wheels and it's on the verge of blowing up. 
My thoughts broke when the wall clock chimed indicating that it's past 2 in the morning or midnight whatever it is. Turning my gaze, I let it fall on my baby boy, who is sleeping peacefully beside me on the bed, lying on his stomach.
"Baby." I called softly not expecting a reply but he surprised me by raising his head to look at me.
"You haven't slept yet?" I asked and he shook his head.
Cursing myself I took him into my arms. Wrapping his little arms around my neck, he buried his head into the crook of my neck and I started rocking him.
"Baby." I called softly. Raising his head up he looked at me.
"Do you really think Jaiveer is ready for this marriage?" I asked and why the hell have I asked him? I don't know. 
He nodded his head. I mentally kicked myself. What has my baby even understood from my question? 
Tucking his head back into my neck, I kept on rocking him until he had fallen asleep. Gently laying him on the bed, I too flopped down beside him and tried to fall asleep but it looks like sleep has taken leave from me today. I kept on tossing and turning with half sleep and with half of the time something running in my brain and along with me Adiraj too kept on tossing and turning. 
Maa used to say, as long as parents feel restless, kids too feel restless. Maybe that's what's happening with my Adiraj. 
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Staring at Viraj's photo that was sitting peacefully on my desk I again posed the same question for the hundredth time. 
Is Jaiveer ready for this marriage?
Yeah! I have completely turned into a maniac in the past 3 days because I have been posing the same question each and every second but who is going to give me an answer?
I know why I have agreed to this marriage. For Adiraj. 
For one, I don't want to deprive my baby of a father that he deserves.
For two, I don't want to deprive him of a big family that both Viraj and I failed to provide. 
Of course, I have a huge family with extended uncle's, aunt's and cousins but as I already said, few of them only want my Papa’s money and few of them just distanced from being busy with their own lives. And coming to Viraj, he lost his parents at a very tender age and he doesn't even know any of his extended family. He desperately wished so much to provide a huge a** family for Adiraj but it hadn't happened.
After knowing that Papa has chosen Dixit's family for me, the first thing I did is to research about them. When I got to know that compared to us their family is a bigger one, I felt like Viraj himself is trying to fulfil his wish.