Chapter 32

                                    

                                          
Jiddarhs pov
     Immediately I got home I flung my bag on the bed and jumped on it.Ah Alhamdulilah finally I am done with this semester exams ,another semester done insha Allah. I am so happy I can finally have time to my self again eat,sleep and binge watch my fav shows. I instantly smiled when I remembered that Yusuf has been texting me every single day I have a paper wishing me luck and praying for me and that kind gesture really touched my heart .Ibrahim only texted once the week I started the exam and that was it ,the gesture was also kind thou . My smile instantly dropped now that I remember that my exams is over and I have to talk to them both.
 Let me shower first and sleep I will deal with that problem later .
Ibrahim's pov
     This past few weeks have been really lonely for me ,I tried so hard to atleast have a conversation with Walida but she isn't letting me she even left Abuja to go to lagos just so she can avoid me. And Jiddarh well we havnt spoken either I am given her the space she asked for but I also miss her but I miss Walida more and I am more desperate to speak to her. 
Just then my phone rang I was hoping it would be Walida but it wasn't it was jiddarh ,I was a bit disappointed but I answered 
"Hey jiddarh ya kike"
"Alhamdulilah kwana biyu" she answered 
"Wlh fa ,so you finally decided to stop hiding"
"Lol I never hide I called because I want us to talk, I promised you would be the first I speak to when I make a decision and that is why I want us to talk."she said 
"Oh wow ok I just came back from the hospital let me freshen up and I will come over to your place". I said 
She agreed ,and with that we ended the call .finally I am going to know my place today ,but I can't help but feel un easy.
Yusufs pov
     Hardest few weeks of my life.I miss jiddarh so much and I know she is done with her exams today I am desperately fighting the urge to call her. I asked Amina to send me their timetable so anyway jiddarh has an exam I pray for her just so she knows I care. Even though she only replies with "Ameen thank you" I know it makes her happy because why wouldn't it . I want to take her out to celebrate so she can atleast relax after reading nonstop but I am trying to respect the whole space thing it is really hard but I don't have a choice.
Jiddarhs pov
      I called Ibrahim and he said he will come back later I have finally made a decision.I prayed over it and I followed my heart and today I will finally let them know who my heart choose immediately Ibrahim leaves I will call Yusuf and tell him as well . But because I made a promise to Ibrahim that I will tell him first I want to fulfill the promise.Ibrahim called me a few minutes later,saying he was outside ,I grabbed my hijab put it on and went to see him.
"Sallamu Alaikum" I said as I entered the car.
"Wa alaikum mu sallam"he answered.
"What's wrong with your eyes" I asked noticing something was wrong with his eyes .
"Nothing I am just tired from all the hospital stress,and I am also nervous to know your decision" ibrahim said .  
"Ibrahim you were my first love and you meant so much to me and you still do, if there is someone that thought me the meaning of love it is definitely you because first loves are irreplaceable but sometimes,it's not about who you loved first it's who you love more, you will forever hold a special place in my heart but right now my heart beats for Yusuf and I have tried to fight it because of my own insecurities and fears but I can't deny the truth anymore,I am really sorry I know you will definitely feel hurt but I promise you this isn't revenge or anything but the heart wants what it wants I am really sorry ." I finally said to him ,he looked sad and a bit angry but he didn't say anything until he finally spoke.
"Thank you for being honest and it's not like I am chasing you away but I want to be alone please"He said not looking at my direction.
I quietly left the car and went back inside .i suddenly felt nervous and shy to call Yusuf but he has been waiting for months for an answer and I know he will be so happy to hear my answer . So I just swallowed the shyness and dailed his number he rejected and immediately called back .
"Assalamu Alaikum" I said after picking the call.
"Wa alaikum mu Salam Reina you have no idea how happy I am to hear your voice ya Allah I missed your Angelic voice" He said sounding very happy . "How have you been" he added.
"I have been good" I replied 
"How was your exams and everyone at home"
"It was all good and everyone is fine Alhamdulilah,um I want to tell you something"
"Really what is it or have you finally made a decision" he said sounding nervous.
"Yes I have" I said 
"Ok I am on my way over then"he said immediately.
"No please I would feel more comfortable telling you on the phone I am too shy to face you right now"I said 
"Shy hmm is that a good sign of bad? Reina whatever you have to say I would rather be looking at you while you say it,I have missed you so much I really want to see you and even if what you want to tell me might break my heart atleast looking at you will ease my pain"Yusuf said in a pleading voice.
"Ok fine when are you coming"
"Expect me in 2 minutes I am in your area"
"So fast did you fly" I asked surprised
"Truth is I was missing you so I wanted to come to your house with the excuse of seeing Abdul and luckily I was on my way when you called" he said.
"Oh God Yusuf Allah ya shiryeka( may God deliver you)" 
"What it's not bad you know and I am outside you want me to come in our you will come out and meet me" 
"I will come out"I said. Ended the call and then put on my Abaya and veil for some reason I wanted to look nice so I put on a little powder and lipgloss then I went out . The minute I entered the car Yusuf stared at me with a seeet smile and he said
"How I have missed seeing this gorgeous face it is as if you have gotten more beautiful seriously how do you do it Reina how do you become more beautiful by the day" he said and I covered my face and said 
"Yusuf stop you are making me blush just say Masha Allah" 
"Okay fine ,so I guess you called me here because you have already made a decision"he asked nervously.
"Yes" I replied still covering my face . How am I going to do this how am I going to tell Yusuf that I love him. I just had to find the courage.I removed my veil from my face and spoke so he could hear me well.
"Yusuf I remember when I first saw you I instantly felt a connection and although I was young I still knew that my feelings for you back then was strong, and when you and I started dating back then you made me very happy and that made me fall more inlove with you minute by minute and then what happened happened and I was very hurt,and it was at that moment I knew I was finished I loved you so much to the extent that it hurt me so back, and it took me literally 5 years to heal and when I saw you again I realized that I was still hurt and that the only person that could heal me was the one who broke me and with all my defenses you still managed to heal me and to make me fall inlove with you all over again. I kept trying to fight it because I was afraid of getting hurt all over again but the love I have for you overcame my fear and now I am admitting that I love you yusuf and I choose you and you are the one I want to be with and get married to In sha Allah and grow old with. I am giving you not just my love but my heart and I hope you take care of it and you nurture it with love and care I never knew it would be possible to trust you again but I do now and I hope you don't break my trust again"I said
Yusufs pov
       I was nervous at first to come but when I got there and I laid my eyes on jiddarh I felt my nerves becoming calm Ya Allah I love her so much. And when she started talking and she got to the part where she said I love you Yusuf and I choose you my heart became overwhelmed with joy and I couldn't contain it I don't know when I started smiling so widely and when she was done talking I said.
"Jiddarh my Reina I promise you that I will never intentionally hurt you ever again or do anything intentionally to break your trust. I know I am a human being and I have made mistakes and I will make mistakes in the future but I promise I will never make one that will break your trust like I did in the past I promise to be the best version of myself so we can grow and learn together I promise to try everything in my power to make you happy and make us work I promise to never stop loving you" I said and then I held her hands and said " my love you have made me so happy today words can't even explain thank you Reina for giving us another chance Alhamdulilah ya Allah thank you for making her love me again . I don't think any day beats this day maybe our wedding day In sha Allah but for now this is the happiest day of my life and I am not even exaggerating" I said with so many emotions in my heart and a wide smile on my face . I feel like hugging her but I can't but I am still happy one day she will be my wife I will get to hug her as much as I want and I can't wait for that day.
Jiddarhs pov
      Yusuf was so happy it was obvious he made so many promises I hope he keeps because at the end actions speak louder than words . I was also happy I can love him freely now. We spoke about how everything has been for us for the past 3 weeks my exams,the social media drama , his work and everything then I checked the time and saw we had been outside jisting for almost 4 hours it was getting late so I told him to go home . He pouted and didn't want to go but I was able to convince him . I went back inside and I was so happy I felt butterflies in my stomach I prayed and then laid down and before I knew it I feel asleep .
Hey guys finally jiddarh made a choice I hope it is the right one though .
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