[Chapter 22]

                                    

                                          

The next morning Daphne and Tracy tried to wake me up and convince me to come with them for breakfast.
Pansy: i don't want to..im not hungry.
Daphne: Pans it wasn't a question. You are coming with us you want it or not.
Pansy: but-
Tracy: no! You will come to eat. End of discussion.
I looked at them and took a deep breath.
Pansy: fine.
I got up and started to get ready. How the hell am i gonna show up like that? I did my morning routine and wore my slytherin uniform.
Once i was done i went over to them and together we headed to the great hall.
Pansy: I'll ask Dumbledore to change dorms. I can't be in the same dorm with a backstabber..
I frowned and scoffed. Im not staying longer with Stephanie..i thought she was my friend! And now she's dating my ex?? 
Tracy: don't think because you will be staying alone we won't coming everyday to check on you. 
I sighed and nodded. As we walked in I felt stares, I looked around and back down staring at my feet as we walked to our spot.
I sat down with both of them on either side and stared blankly at my plate.
Tracy: Here, eat some pancakes.
She said softly putting them on my plate. I looked at the syrup and then at her.
Daphne: please... even if it's just a bite..
I sat there staring at the pancakes as Tracy poured syrup on them. I picked a fork up and sat there deciding whether or not I should take a bite.
I rubbed my forehead and cut a small piece putting it in my mouth. I held it there not chewing it nor swallowing it. 
Daphne: Pansy..
I teared up as I chewed on it and balled my fists as I forced myself to swallow it. 
Tracy: we're so proud of you Pansy.
I nodded no and pushed the plate away.
Pansy: I can't anymore.
Daphne: Four more bites... for both of us... please..
I groaned and took four more bites. I ended up excusing myself to go to the bathroom. As I walked in I bent down looking under the stalls from an angle to make sure no one was there.
I walked into the farthest stall and got on my knees infront of the toilet shoving a finger down my throat. 
As I gagged my eyes watered, following with me throwing up. I coughed and spit into the disgusting water and flushed it. I ended up sitting against the wall hugging my knees thinking about my situation.
I felt miserable, tired, and alone. I wanted attention, I wanted to be surrounded by my friends but part of me tells me that I'm too much for them, that they don't want me around.
An hour past by and I finally got up, I ended up putting my hair up and rinsing my mouth out with the sink water as I quickly left. 
I walked down the halls , quickly turning corners. I finally reached big doors, where I knocked impatiently.
Dumbledore: Come in!
I opened the door and walked in sitting down at his chair.
Pansy: I need to change dorms.
He studied my face and combed his beard out as he stood up.
Dumbledore: Ms. Parkinson I've heard some things about you... and from what I see now I can see that they're true..
I clenched my jaw looking down as I played with the end of my skirt. 
Pansy: I didn't come for a life lesson or advice.
He nodded and sat down.
Dumbledore: Do you have a reason on why you'd like to move?
Pansy: yes I do- but it's personal so I can't really share it with you..
He took out a big book from under his desk and opened it to a page which he ripped out. He then put it in front of me as he put the book back and handed me a quill.
Dumbledore: this will confirm that you want to move dorms.
I nodded and signed it and handed it back. He looked at it and folded it handing it to his owl which flew out the window.
Dumbledore: he's sending it to Snape, he shall escort you to your new dorm..
I nodded and stood up grabbing my wand.
Pansy: thank you professor...
He nodded and put a hand out gesturing to the door. I then walked out and stopped thinking.
Dumbledore: do you have something on your mind...?
Pansy; who told you about me? When I first entered you mentioned how someone told you something about me.. was it Tracy or Daphne?
He sighed and looked at me.
Dumbledore: it was not Ms. Parkinson..
Pansy: may I know who it was..?
I said turning back to him.
Dumbledore: it was Mr. Zabini... he came in earlier and had told me how you've been starving yourself... I can't let that happen on campus Pansy.. I told Madam Promfrey about it and she's going to start checking up on you morning and night so get ready for those daily and nightly visits.
I clenched my jaw
Pansy: I don't need them- I swear I don't- he had no right in telling you!
He looked at me and his eyes soften.
Dumbledore: it seemed like he was really worried... he offered over 500 galleons to get you good medicine..
I looked away nodding my head. 
Dumbledore: take care.. she'll be coming back to me with updates on you.
I walked out heading towards the common room. I didn't know what to feel right now. I was frustrated, confused. Why did he care? All of a sudden.
I mumbled the password and walked in and around the corner to Snape's office. I knocked on the door which he opened instantly.
Snape: your new dorm is on this paper.. here are your keys..
He said handing me a small sheet with the room number and the keys.
Snape: it's a solo dorm, it's not as big as regular dorms as this one is only made for one person..
I nodded and thanked him before walking out. I walked to my old dorm and began packing my things which took me about an hour, I then apperated the big furniture into the room with me. I looked around and relaxed.
It was perfect, it wasn't so big or so small. It was just for me..