Arc 2 | Chapter 5 - Processing my situation

                                    

                                          
Talking"
'Thinking'
Spell incantation
{Telepathic speaking}
《"SHADOW speaking"》
《'SHADOW thinking'》
I won't lie this chapter is inspired by "Re:Zero, Why Me?" by Writer with bad Grammar T-T.
I suggest to go and check his stuff out on fanfiction.net.
Note: 02-04-2023 I changed some things in the chaper which will impact future chapters. Some of Subaru's Origin and elements are no longer the same.
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Ash and dust...
Ash and dust where everywhere I could see.
Screams from men, women... children were all that I could hear.
But I just kept on walking, ignoring everything.
Eventually, I got tired and almost collapsed, but...
"I want to live."
... that thought was what kept me from giving up.
Each step I took increased the chance of me escaping this 'hell'....
... But with each step I took, I lost a piece of myself- no who I once WAS.
My memories, my feelings, my emotions, they all were used to keep me walking onwards.
But I didn't care.
Because nothing else matters but my own survival.
However... eventually, I had nothing left to cast away, which led me to collapse.
I couldn't move forward anymore, but I changed my position so I could face the sky.
I gazed upon a starlit sky that shined so bright.
The stars were so beautiful, so full of life, that I just couldn't help but to 'feel' at awe or whatever could be described to 'feel' in awe.
But I could also 'feel' jealously towards them.
'Jealousy' towards them for being able to shine so bright, for looking so unaffected by the things that happened around it.
They felt no pain, no guilt, and no regrets. They just lived in content.
I started to 'enjoy' laing here, staring at the starlit sky, content with it.
I just laid there gazing upon the stars, ignoring everything and everyone else around me.
'I guess this is it.' I thought in acceptance.
I had accepted that I would die.
'At least I tried.'
There I lied, waiting for my final breath to come, for the final piece of Subaru Na***** to perish. However...
Crack!
... a piece of the sky suddenly cracked before shattering, revealing a black void of nothingness.
I just laid there 'confused' over what had just happened, staring at the empty void until...
Bloop!
... something suddenly came out of it.
It had the shape of a small heart. It was pitch black with purple outlines, and there was a clawed hand grabbing the heart. The hand was the same colour as the heart. Yet, it seemed to be beating, as if it was alive.