||Chapter 1||

                                    

                                          
TW: Mention of cutting.
No one's POV:
As usual Kakashi had woken up to silence.
It was about 3 in the morning, but this was normal. 
Kakashi's mom died, and his father committed suicide. Living alone in silence, waking up early and scared was a routine. He'd have nightmares. They only got worse as the days passed. 
He quietly got out of bed. As a shinobi, and as a prodigy. Being quiet was no problem. 
He needed food!
Kakashi was hungry, so he made something basic to last him until the end of training at least. 
Eggs, and toast.  It was simple, and enough for him.
After eating. He left the kitchen area. Just to head to his bathroom where he planned to brush his teeth.
A daily routine!
After getting that done. He couldn't help, but eye a certain drawer....
What was so important about it...?
Why did he want to reach into so badly...?
Well..
That drawer held razors...
Razors he used to cut his own skin...
They made him feel good....great actually....it helped him cope.
The blood would gracefully pour down his arm while he just stood there emotionless....
'no! No!' Kakashi yelled at himself. 'Obito wouldn't want someone who does this!! STOP IT DAMN IT! DON'T REACH INTO THAT DRAWER!' He didn't want to give in, but the temptation!! 
He couldn't even stop his hand from reaching in if he wanted to. Flashbacks of his dad's final moments were coming in.....!! 
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Kakashi was sat on the floor with his knee to his chest, while his arms were out. He stared at them emotionless. 
'A freak like you with someone like Obito? DON'T MAKE ME LAUGH!'
'I know...'
'No wonder your dad killed himself! He definitely used the mission as an excuse. He just pitied you, and told you that!!
'already known'
'Rin and Obito are such a good couple!!'
'i-I agree' 
He lowered his self esteem more, and more, as tears slipped from his eyes. He's useless...
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Kakashi couldn't let team Minato know about his problem...not  ever.
Even after all that. Kakashi was still the first to arrive.
Though he could sense Minato somewhere around waiting. 
Soon Rin arrived after Kakashi.
The blush evident on her face. Though he didn't even bat an eye at her. He hated her.....no... wrong word..
He's envious of her....
He wishes....he were her....
Then maybe.....he would have a chance with Obito.
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"S-SORRY I'M LATE!!" Obito yelled running towards them.
Once he finally reached them. 
He started panting like crazy.
He ran all the way there without breaks. Did he even eat breakfast? Probably not!
Minato, who Kakashi knew was there the whole time jumped down from a tree smiling. "Alright, now that we're all here! Why don't we try close combat again?" He suggested. To which Obito just groaned. Rin sighed, and Kakashi stared at Obito while blushing. The mask he always wore covered it up though. THANK GOD! "Don't groan lazy oaf, it's not hard." Kakashi said while looking away. Was he too rude?! Would Obito hate him after he said that?!
Clearly.
Obito's eye twitched, as he looked towards the boy younger than him. "Close combat is not everyone's strong suit Bakashi!" He rolled his eyes.
Rin did not like the tension...
Kakashi didn't either, and even though his bandaged arms were in so much pain. The pain in his heart was greater, as Obito yelled at him....
He'd never yell at Rin... never.
Maybe if I act like her... he'll like me?