An Impasse

                                    

                                          
Chapter Nine
Tully
Once I hang up with Jaycee, I look back at Juice. " What do you know about the Elvis impersonator? " 
" Bobby? " He says as his ears perk up. " He's an important member of our- her family. The voice of reason. Why? What happened? " 
I really hate being the bearer of bad news. " I'm sorry to be the one to tell you this, but he was murdered. "
" Fuck, Bobby. " He says as he furiously wipes at his eyes. 
The broken look that comes over his face makes me think I shouldn't have told him. Seeing him so fucked up over this information damn near breaks my heart. Sitting back on the bunk I pull him into my arms. 
He tries to push me away and I know why. It's dangerous to show emotions in here. Lucky for him, I'm a softie for Latinos. Call it what you want but I've never stuck to one gender. Once he stops fighting it he holds onto me while shaking like a leaf.
" It's okay, let it out. " I whisper as I rub the top of his head. 
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The first person I see when Leland and I get out of the truck is aunt Gemma. Once our eyes lock I run to her and let her embrace comfort me as it used to when I was a little girl. It's then that I break down completely.
" I know, baby. I know. " She says sounding as though she's holding back tears as well. 
I cry out, " why? Why him? He was what we couldn't afford to lose. "
" I'm sorry, baby. " She says holding me tighter.  
When I calm down a little I wipe my face with the hankie aunt Gemma hands me. Looking back at Leland I point him out to her. " This is Leland. He's with me. " 
She eyes him in distrust. I know it's the Swastika tattoo he proudly lets peek out from under his shirt. See, aunt Gemma is Jewish and she has never respected skinheads. I give her an " I'll explain later " look, she shrugs it off and we head inside the clubhouse.  
Leland posts himself at the entrance of the clubhouse and keeps an eye on everyone coming and going. Heading to the bar I pour myself a large whiskey and down it all at once. 
It's then I hear a Scottish accent from behind me. " What's the nazi doing here? " He asks before sitting next to me at the.
" Security via, Tully. " I tell him. " He's... Protective. "
If looks could kill, I'd be dead right now. Chibs looks from me to Leland hopelessly and I feel kind of bad for three seconds. That is until I remember that he's screwing the sheriff. He has no right to be angry when he didn't even fight for me. 
Shaking my head I get up and leave him to sulk. The whole time I have to remind myself that he's the past and Tully is my future. 
That's when I stop halfway to aunt Gemma's office. 
When did I start thinking of this man as my future? When did this happen? HOW did this happen? This was only supposed to be a " for business " kind of thing. 
Don't get me wrong, I do find him interesting as I told him. However, I've never been one to think of any man in my life in the future tense. Family not included obviously. This is complete lunacy. 
" Jaycee. " I hear and know who it is instantly. 
Turning around I come face to face with Jax for the first time in a week. I honestly don't know what to say to him. I know what I want to ask but I know that Juice is still alive for a reason. And the reason is something he will never tell me.