chapter 4: screams

                                    

                                          
the sun rose high up into the sky. porchay was snuggled closely to the olders chest and the birds would keep chirping, louder and louder as the clock kept ticking. "why are you pretending to sleep?" kimhan questioned, his voice deep and raspy. porchay giggled as he looked up to the older, kimhan already staring deep into his bambi eyes. "kiss" porchay demanded which made kimhan chuckle. "my angel is already vey eager early in the morning" kimhan laughed as he leaned closer, his finger pulling the youngers chin closer so he could capture their lips in a sweet and loving kiss. as soon as kimhan's lips were on porchay's, he licked the youngers bottom lip, softly biting it so at the same time it doesn't hurt or scar. porchay hummed into the kiss without even realising while kimhan just smiled in the middle of the kiss. porchay's lips were as addicting as he was. they pulled away as porchay gasped for air, making the older laugh loudly. "sorry angel, didn't mean to take your breath away" kimhan joked and that had earned him a punch to the chest from his angel. "ouch" he groaned softly as he lifted the younger up along with himself from their laying position. "p'kimm" porchay whined as he was placed on kimhan's lap. 
"i put your video on youtube on a premiere so when it's out you can just announce it" kimhan explained as he caressed his lovers cheek. he leaned in closer, pecking the youngers cheeks and then nose, going slightly up to his eyes and to his mole, kissing it softly. "you're gorgeous my angel" kimhan whispered into his ear as he bit down onto his earlobe making porchay whine and push him away slightly. "p!!" porchay softly whined as he sighed. the older was soo attractive that he was trying his hardest to not stare too hard. any more of this and he'll be laying on the floor, crying as he begins to go crazy over his boyfriend. not just his boyfriend but his overly attractive boyfriend. if porchay was to be honest, kimhan seems and comes off as such a big sweetheart right? he seems soo sweet and loving, just as wik. well. kimhan is the extreme opposite of that. he's such a big asshole, such a big manipulator. a castle full of different sides and chambers. a monumental vision of its future. kimhan was the strongest in between the theerapanyakul siblings. why? because he had the best control over his own feelings, neverendingly hidind his emotions and actual goals. 
but there came the biggest difference. with porchay, kimhan had sworn to himself to never hide his real feelings, his real human emotions. he had sworn to the love of his life to never lie. he's had enough of the pain he'd created in porchay's life therefore his loving and sweet self around porchay was always geniune. his clinginess, obsession, adoration and love for porchay was the most realistic thing in his life. it was almost more realistic than his own life, his own existence and self. 
"p'kim" porchay took him out of his thoughts. "yes my angel?" kimhan softly responded as he nuzzled his face into porchay's neck, inhaling the sweet and relaxing taste of porchay. "are you feeling ok?" porchay asked as his hands made their way onto his boyfriends back, rubbing smooth and small circles all over it. "mhm" kimhan hummed as he nuzzled himself closer. "can i stay here a bit more my love? i need to go to the studio in a bit but you're just soo addicting and relaxing.." kimhan explained, his voice was raspy but soft. porchay couldn't lie. he just couldn't. kimhan being like this was soo addicting on its own. it was doing things to his little heart that no other thing could do. the fact that porchay, a mere human being who wished and wished for small little mundane things is actually the boyfriend of kimhan theerapanyakul, of wik, just really shocks him sometimes. it shocks porchay to know that he went from having a big shrine of wik in his room and always fanboying over him to being able to sit on his lap and be called pet names and sweet endearments by the man himself. by his idol, his long time idol. 
"baby.." kimhan softly said. "y-yes?" porchay responded, embarassed from his thoughts. "i love you" kimhan bluntly said. porchay was caught offguard. don't get him wrong, this isn't the first time kimhan says these words, they almost seem meaningless to him but when kimhan says them out of the blue, it really shocks porchay. nevertheless, he reciprocated those words to him. "i love you too p'kim! very much!" porchay beamed. kimhan chuckled softly and his calming breath could be felt by porchay as it hit his neck lightly. kimhan planted a soft peck onto porchay's neck as he removed himself slowly, a very painfully slowly.