Kazutora's POV

                                    

                                          
Seven months have passed since I and (Y/N) have been writing to each other. And I can't lie but I think I fell in love with her. No, I have no intentions of telling her. I was glad the guards let us keep our pictures because I have so many of her, her pets even random pictures of flowers she took. She was so sweet, and when I was ready to spill my entire past to her, she was so accepting. They started to allow us to have some phone calls, and since I didn't really have many people here I could call, I called her. She provided me with her number when I asked her if it was okay. Her voice is so soft and sweet. I couldn't even do something without thinking about her.
Today we were having our normal group session, to talk about our penpals so they could see if it was worth it to keep doing it. I hope they allowed us because I don't think I could stop writing her. I would literally go crazy. 
"So Kazutora, how do you think this pen pal exchange is going for you?" 
"Uhm, really well. I was able to open up to her without her having to judge me. She practically knows everything about me. It's refreshing to talk to her."
"Really? Do you feel it's helping you get through everything? Learn from your mistakes?"
"Yes, at first I wasn't sure if I wanted to tell her everything scared I would scare her away. There have been times we mentioned how great it would be to meet up in the future." 
"So you have a goal then when you get out of here?"
"Yeah, stay out of trouble so I can eventually meet her." 
"Good to hear. Well, you can go back to your cell."
"Okay, wait, question."
"Yes?"
"Will we be able to continue writing letters to them? I really don't want to stop the exchange..." 
"I see you, have taken a liking to her?" 
"No that's not. It's just I feel like I can be myself with her." 
"Well, luckily the others said the same thing. It's helping them mentally wise as well to have someone more their age talk to them. So yes, we will be continuing this as a permanent thing." 
I smiled at that feeling relieved. She then handed me another letter and smiled and I took it from her.
"You two have exchanged more letters than anyone else." 
"I guess I am lucky... thank you." I bowed to her and the guard handcuffed me and took me back to the cell. Once I arrived I flopped down on my bed and opened the letter. 
'Dear Tora,
Happy seven months of friendship! I know, I know, it's lame. But on this day seven months ago I wrote you! Since then we exchange so many letters! I feel like I have known you for so long! My brother teased me because I made a 7-month cake of our friendship. But then forgot I can't mail it to you for more than one reason... so I attached a photo. I have to make one when we meet! 
So, how is everything? Are you still doing okay? I know sometimes you don't always tell me when something is wrong, which is fine. I understand, I just worry sometimes...
Nothing too exciting happened here. It's the usual honestly, pretty boring. These letters and your calls are the only exciting things really. Oh, you never told me about your birthday! When is it? I wanna celebrate it with you. Mine is (birthday).
Well, talk to you later. 
Quote of the day: You will face many defeats in your life, but never let yourself be defeated.
<3 
(N/N)'
I couldn't help but shake my head and laugh at the letter.
"Dork..." I mumbled to myself and looked at the picture of you and the cake. I held the picture to me, before taping it to my wall with many pictures of the ones you sent.
Dear (N/N),
What am I going to do with you? You are such a dork, but it's adorable that you keep track of how many months we have been friends. Honestly, I have to. Though I never thought of celebrating such a thing. But it makes sense why you would want to celebrate such a thing. I honestly haven't been this happy in a very long time, and I have you to thank for that. Even some friends that visit me occasionally stated that I look better, and seem much happier. I told them about you, and now they want to meet you. Who knows how long that will be though? Some of them tease me, but we won't get into that. I am sure it's the same reason why your brother teases you. 
Anyway, I am doing okay. Nothing changes same routine as always. Sorry, I don't open up all the time, I just kind of want to not talk about certain things. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve you. You are too good for this world, too good for me... yet you are always there when I need you. I just feel like if I share my problems with you, I may worry you too much. So I don't wanna do that. I know I can go to you though when things get really rough. Thank you again. 
My birthday is September 16... So you can celebrate it if you want, don't have to though. It's no big deal. I will make sure to somewhat celebrate your birthday or something. I will think of something when the time comes. <3 
Uhm, also... one last thing... I know this may sound weird... but I am so happy you chose me. I think I may have feelings for you, though not sure. Since we never really met in person. But all of the calls and letters, even your cute motivational quotes at the end of your letters really help me. This is a half confession since I am not sure if it's because you are the only person I really talk to, a girl at that. Or if it's genuine sorry if it's creepy. I just can't help it. Your pictures always make me smile and my heart starts beating faster. And- yeah. Ignore this part of the letter if you think it's weird or if you don't feel the same. Well, I look forward to your next letter.
<3 
Tora
I looked over my letter and I slid against the wall with a blush. I can't believe I just confessed er half confessed. Well, I need to give it to them before I lose my nerve and start over. I quickly put it in an envelope and gave it to the guard to give it to the counselor.