Halloween dance

                                    

                                          
For the Halloween dance everyone had to dress in costume. Except for me I had to be pretty limited on what I was. Nobody knew but I still hurt myself so I had to cover up. Me, Donna, and Gwen all wanted to be lifeguards. I wore a lifeguard sweatshirt with leggings and a cute hat and whistle. I looked in my mirror. This was such acute outfit, just not a very pleasing body. I took back off my leggings and put duck tap around my thighs. Better, I still hated how I looked. I sat down and fixed up my face with makeup. Much better. I heard a knock at the door!! Ahh I'm so excited!
"Where the hell are you going y/n?" Vance says
"The Halloween dance? I told you last night?"
"Whatever I dint give a fuck about you go and fuckjng die I could care less."
"Whatever" 
Wow what a great start to my night. I go to answer the door.
"Omg y/n you look so good!!" Gwen says
"Awww thanks guys! But you guys  also look good!" I say
"Well what are you guys waiting for Finney and Robin are waiting for us!" Donna says.
The whole time I was thinking about Robin. Up until I saw him. Damn he looked good. I guess either Donna or Gwen told them about the lifeguard outfits and they joined in. Robin wore this tank top that showed his arm muscles. 
"Well hello y/n. You look nice." Robin said
"So do you!" I say
We we're pretty late so we already heard the slow dance music come on. I felt robins hand touch mine and he started holding it.
"Wanna dance?" 
"Who wouldn't want to dance with you Robin?"
I saw Donna and Finney dancing together and I saw Finney kiss donna! I was so happy for them! While we were dance I rested my head on his shoulder.
"By the way y/n we're just friends okay?" Robin said
"Oh yeah I knew that." 
But I didn't. I knew it. I got a riled up and thought Robin actually liked me. But no. I started feeling water spark my eyes but I hid my face from Robin so he couldn't see. When the slow music turned off I rushed right towards the bathroom. I started bawling crying. I really thought he could like me? But no. I'm a fat, ugly, worthless piece of shit. I think I took robins comment too far. Way to far. I left the dance. I walked right past Gwen and Donna. Finney started chasing after me. I didn't care. All of the things robins said to me are true. I hated him. I walk in the house and Vance is there.
"Aw man I really thought you would be gone by now slut."
"Vance shut the fuck up! Okay I get it I agree! My body isn't perfect so  I tape my legs. my face looks weird so I have to cover it up with makeup! I hate letting people see me like this so I don't show any emotion towards anyone until it's all bottled up and starts to overflow! I hate my worthless piece of shit life so I cut myself to make me feel better! I wanna fucking die but my biggest fear is death so there's nothing I can do Vance okay? Nothing!"
I just did that. I stood up to Vance hopper.
"Go upstairs whore."
So I did. And when I arrived to my room I went under the mattres and grabbed the biggest object I could find. I took off the bandages and blood started pouring out. I got the object and used it hard. Really hard. I finally had the courage to do it. Goodbye