"Then tell me you love me!"

                                    

                                          
TW: language, argument 
SORRY FOR MISTAKES
it was a cold winter morning, and you had gotten up to see Joseph all dressed up, he had wore his black suit and combed his hair.
After a few seconds he realised you were up 
"Hey" he said and smiled at you while he was buttoning his shirt
"hey" you responded "where are you going?"
"Out,there's this thing I need to attend to.Plus they wanted me to come early to set up"
" Oh,seems fun" you were slightly upset that he hadn't invited you to tag along and that he also hadn't told you about it until the last second 
" You okay?" he asked seeing you zoned out
"Fine, did you eat anything?" 
"Oh yeah I made toast, I left some for you if you'd like"
"Thanks"
You lifted up the blanket over you and got out of bed.Joseph grabbed his bag and followed after you. 
You walked towards the kitchen to grab a glass of water while Joseph looked at himself on the  mirror.
You walked towards him after you finished your drinking your water and gazed at him 
"What?" he chuckled 
" nothing" you smiled
" Alright I'm running late gotta go"
" Alright bye!" 
" I love you "
he said and left you a small kiss on your lips as you smiled 
That day he wasn't home at all in fact he came very late ,around 3 or 4 am.
You woke up to the door opening and You figured that Joseph was home but after about 30 minutes he still wasn't in bed so you got up to see where he was.
You looked around to see him in the balcony with a White shirt and jeans on smoking a cigarette, you slowly walked towards him and opened the balcony door.
Once he heard the balcony door open he looker behind him to see you, he turned his head back and scoffed. 
That was utterly strange, he was quite joyful in the morning but now for some reason he wasn't. You just figured that he was tired or something 
"What's wrong ?" You asked
no reply
"Joe?" You asked and tapped on his shoulder 
He let out a cold sigh and then put down his cigarette 
" Nothing Y/n just go sleep"
" Somethings wrong Joseph just tell me"
" I said it's nothing Y/n, just go to bed" this time he raised his voice a lot more
There was complete silence for about a whole 5 minutes until he started talking 
" Do you love me y/n?" he said in a upset tone
" Of course I do" 
" Then why can't you say it."
that last thing he said left you stunned
" What do you mean Joe"
" You never say I love you Y/n"
his eyes started tearing up a bit 
" I do" 
" Really? then why haven't I ever heard you say it?" 
" I don't know you just probably don't remember" 
" You couldn't say it this morning. Hell, you didn't say it ever since we met"
" Joe"
" No I'm serious do you love me or not"
" You know I do" 
" Then tell me you love me!"
he was trying to cover his face so you wouldn't see the fact that he was crying uncontrollably.
He finally got a hold of himself and then looked at you , bit his lip and said 
" Fuck this." 
He grabbed his bag that already had his phone, headphones, money, keys and water inside and left the house.
You fell onto the couch sobbing your eyes out, That was so stupid you could have just said you loved him and all of this wouldn't have happened but for some reason you couldn't, you had grown up In a loving home with loving people you told you they loved you all the time but you would just respond
"  I do too " or stuff like that, And now that you hadn't told him that you loved him you had lost him forever.You knew it would take a while for him to come back, possibly never would, so you knew that you had to find him and make things right 
Tell him that you love him
Author Fun fact : I can't say i love you either!!!👍 God that's gonna bite me so hard  in the ass some day