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I stood staring at the wall between platform nine and three-quarters and inhaled deeply. Memories flooded before my eyes causing me to halt. 
I felt a tug at my jacket and looked down, bright blue eyes were peering up at me with a slight frown between her eyes. I smiled down at her, "are you ready my love?"
"Yes mama, are you okay?" Phoebe's eyes twinkled as she observed me. 
I smiled softly, "how could I not be with you by my side?" She chuckled softly and held onto my hand. "Nervous sweet?" I asked as I gripped her fingers between mine. 
She nodded slightly but kept her gaze on the wall in front of us. I watched her as she took a deep breath and set her face determinedly. 
"On the count of three okay? One.. two... three" we ran towards the wall still gripping each other's hands and slid straight through the brick like it was water. I heard Phoebe sigh slightly and quickly drop my hand. 
I frowned down at her and she quickly shook her head, "not here mama, I'm a big girl now" I chucked lightly, noticing that she specified here. I placed her bag onto her shoulder and bent down placing my hands gently onto her arms. 
"I'll miss you" I could feel the tears fill my eyes, Phoebe rolled her eyes instantly. 
"Mom!" She warned looking around. I followed her gaze but no one was watching us, each parent wearing the same expression of my own, nothing but pride and longing, with maybe a hint of fear.
"I just want to say, and I'll be quick" I added quickly as she opened her mouth to speak, "I hope you have the best time, please write as often as you can, I want to know about what you're learning, only if you can." She was scowling, I wanted to know everything about her life without me in it, but I know I also have to let her live on her own. 
"What I'm trying to say is, have an amazing time my love, be safe and have fun" I smiled and she couldn't stop herself my smiling too. She flung her arms around my neck and squeezed, her voice barely above a whisper, she said,
"I love you mama"
I squeezed her back and she let me go, she grabbed her bags and made her way to the big red train that said 'Hogwarts Express' she put one foot on to the train step and stopped, she turned to face me, I could see her eyes sparkly with tears. She lifted her hand slightly and waved. 
I waved and stepped back, allowing other children to clamber onto the train. I couldn't see Phoebe any more, she must have been searching for a compartment and found one on the other side. I continued to wait however, wanting to watch the train leave with my only life support. 
A few moments later, the train whistled letting everyone know it was about to leave. My heart sank, I wasn't ready to let my daughter leave, I don't think I'd ever be ready. 
I scanned the windows one last time in search of Phoebe and suddenly I spotted her, she was leaning over the door at the end of the train waving ballistically, I beamed. She'd found a way to say one last goodbye and she'll never know how much that meant to me. 
I waved enthusiastically back and the train started pulling away, soon she was in line with me and I blew her a kiss. She caught it and placed it on her heart, a little something we've done since she could blow kisses. I watched as her bright blonde hair billowed around her head as the train picked up speed. All too soon, she was gone. 
I stood a moment more before I could no longer hold back my tears, they began to flow freely so I dashed back towards the magical wall. As I turned around I crashed into someone and fell tumbling back, smashing my ass onto the floor.