Chapter 8

                                    

                                          
Taehyung's Pov
I locked myself up in my room as soon as I got home...
I entered straight to my bathroom, my dull reflection stared back at me in the mirror, I turned on the tap and splash cold water over my face and hair...
What was wrong with me...
I've never felt so humiliated and disgusted with myself as I did right
I knew it was exactly what he wants, I knew I was feeling the exact way he wanted but that didn't ease the shame and disappointment I felt in myself
I hated him so much, how could my body burn with so much need when he touched me?
It was like he'd inserted a fire inside of me...
Memories of what we did  flashed in my head...
I tried to suppress them but they just kept coming.....
I stormed out of the bathroom and plunged on my bed, my mind was in the state of a total mess...
I skipped going down for dinner, I wasn't in the mood to see anyone.....
I just wanted to be left alone...
I laid on my stomach, my butt still too raw and tender from all that spanking
I closed my eyes trying to force myself to sleep, perhaps when I wake up I would forget everything...
Sleep wouldn't come...
A sigh escaped my mouth as I closed my eyes trying to catch some good sleep, but my dreams were hunted by a certain green-eyed boy.....
It was no longer a sweet dream, he turned it into a dark nightmare...
Next day
I thought about skipping breakfast but mom would hear nothing of it...
She kept piling my plates up until she was thoroughly satisfied 
"Mom I can't"
"Of course you can't, shouldn't you be on a diet?" Mina remarked
Trust my sister to take my self-esteem lower than it already was...
Mom scowled at her
"What diet? I think he's perfectly fine, not everyone needs to be a broomstick"
My lips tugged in a small smile despite how depressed I felt inside
"Which reminds me, Tae, your birthday is coming up next week, what would you like? We could throw a party so you can invite your friends and classmates" she clapped her palms beaming widely
"Uh...I don't think so" I replied...
Mom still doesn't understand that I only have three friends, I'm totally not popular in any way, I bet if my other classmates even notice if I came to school or not...
"Then what do you want? Your dad will also be returning to visit us, isn't it great?
I looked up at that, dad was coming back? It's been quite long....he was always so busy with work, if he really makes it to my birthday then it would really be wonderful.
"Anything else would be fine" I replied casually taking a bite of my scrambled eggs
"So boring, what's wrong with having a party, you are just too much sometimes !" Mina huffed out rolling her eyes dramatically
This was one of the reasons we never got along even as children, she was totally different from me and never understands me at all.....
I was used to it by now though, her taunts were right now the least of my problems....right now on my mind was the dreadful feeling of meeting him again