Chapter 17

                                    

                                          
"We saw multiple doctors," Sean sighed, "specialists and therapists." He stood and started pacing. "Part of her need for Night is because—" 
"Matthew raped me repeatedly." 
They turned to see Luna standing there clutching the bottom of her shirt so tightly her fingers and knuckles were turning white. 
"Pookie," Sean whispered rushing over to her. "You don't have to, I can tell them." 
"I need to," She shook her head. "I heard what you said Sean—" 
"What?" he asked and she nodded. He cleared his throat, "what did you hear, Luna?" 
"You said I was already yours, but I can't be," She shook her head and removed her hands from his. She didn't know when he took her hands, but she couldn't handle his touch right now. Everything was starting to be too much for her. She wanted to run but she knew she couldn't and yet at the same time she didn't want to. Everything was so confusing and overwhelming right now. "You don't know everything but once you do you will see that I'm not yours. I'm too...I'm just too...it just wouldn't work. Besides I'm your daughter's teacher, it wouldn't be right." She took a step back and shook her head. 
"You aren't too much, Luna," Sean whispered, "I promise. Tell me everything please. Let me, let us in and we can show you that you are perfect for us." 
"I was raped! I'm far from perfect!" She whispered loudly. "Over and over and over for years! HE blamed me when I miscarried my baby and destroyed my insides when he found out I was happy I lost his baby! He forced me to have a backstreet hysterectomy and hid my eggs so I could never have a baby with someone else since I refused to have another one with him. He blamed me when I almost died repeatedly from multiple infections from what that unethical surgeon did to me then doted on me like a loving spouse as he nursed me back to health. He messed with my mind and confused me on everything I thought I knew about love. I finally managed to learn what he did to me was wrong and left and he still had a hold over me because he knew were my eggs were and I just found out that he destroyed them before he ever found me this last time. He manipulated me yet again and I put one of my children's lives at risk because of him and my past! Your ex was right I am a horrible teacher! I see the way you look at your daughter, you are excellent fathers and I can see you would love to have more and I can't give you that. I'm destroyed on the inside and my mind is way too messed up. I appreciate the help you've given me in the past but it's really just best if I...if I..." the tightness in her chest was becoming too much and she clutched her chest as her breathes became shorter and faster. Her chest was starting to burn and her body was screaming in pain. 
Night whined and pushed her into the wall. She fell and Sean dropped to his knees in front of her. "Look at me Luna," He gently commanded as he wiped the tears from her face even though more kept pouring out. "You're okay, Luna, I'm here," Sean said as he uncurled her fingers and intertwined them with his. "I'm here, we're here. You're okay," he repeated over and over as Night licked her face. 
"S...S...S..." She weakly pushed against his chest with their hands and shook her head. She needed air, she needed space. He had to get away from her. He was going to leave her anyway so might as well do it now when she was at her lowest. 
"Stop it right now, Luna."
She kept gasping but stopped struggling to see Owen kneeling down beside Sean and Night. "You are going to hurt yourself and your muscles are already tense from your panic attack, stop it." She gasped as she stared into his grey eyes. "Good girl," he whispered as he pushed some hair out of her face. Confusion filled her eyes and made a mental note about it. "Now feel Sean's chest and try your best to copy his breathing." Sean moved her hands to his chest and Night wedged himself behind her then put his head on her shoulder. She automatically leaned into his head and closed her eyes. "In," Owen commanded waited a bit then said, "Out. Good, again." 
Just as her breathing was getting under control her phone started ringing. "Luna Fox's phone, Kota Lee speaking on her behalf," Kota said professionally then confusion spread across his face. "Aunt Lilly?"