Tw panic attack, anxious thoughts
SapNap pov
After I got off the phone with Karl I went into the guest room.
I started clearing it out I started by changing the bed sheets and pillow cases.
I cleared out the closet that was full of boxes and put the boxes I put the boxes into the hallway to deal with later.
I start cleaning and wiping down other surfaces in the room such as the desk the shelves and any other surfaces I could find.
I set up a chair in the room at the desk and started sorting through the smaller things in the closet.
In the closet on the top shelf were a bunch of smaller full boxes.
In those boxes I found a bunch of photos and memories that I desperately wanted to get rid of.
I started looking through the boxes.
I pulled out a bunch of family photos.
Then I found some pictures of me and my old friends.
I kept digging through the boxes.
Why did you keep these?
I ask myself.
If I'm being honest I don't know why I kept them I desperately wanted these memories gone.
I didn't want to remember any of this anymore.
I try to put everything away but I stop at one particular photo.
It's me and my siblings.
We look happy.
I was happy.
We were happy.
What changed?
I keep that photo and put away the rest.
I take the boxes and out them in the kitchen still undecided about what I want to do with them.
I look at the time 10:36am
I go back to my room and lay on the bed.
I start scrolling through TikTok to pass the time.
———— time skip it's now like 4pm
After a while of scrolling through TikTok I see my computer light up.
I hear a ringing come from it not long after.
I get out of bed but I stand up too quickly.
I feel dizzy.
I sit on the floor for a few seconds before trying to get up again.
I look at my hands.
They're shaking a lot.
I can't control it.
I try to stand up again.
I manage to get up but I feel even dizzier.
I walk over to my computer to see who's calling.
Dream
I answer the call and sit down immediately.
"Took you long enough."
"Sorry I was doing something."
"It's all good. Want to stream?"
"Uhhh I guess but I might have to leave at some point."
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Always anxious (karlnap)
FanfictionStarted: August 8th 2022 Finished: October 10th 2022 Finished with editing and epilogue: February 21st 2023 Cover art by me A karlnap fictional fanfiction based around SapNap's anxiety (I don't think any of this is actually happening in his real li...