August
I pinched the bridge of my nose as I watched Desire storm up the stairs. I knew that shit I had said may not have made sense, but it was how I was feeling. Its crazy, but I'm trying to get her to understand. Hell how do you get somebody to understand when you have fucked over them one time too many and they have been understanding.
I got up and got to her before she could get to the kids. I pinned her against the wall and stared down in her face. She looked up at me with an angry glare.
"August why the hell didn't you just come and talk to me. Tell me what you were feeling and thinking?"
"Desire I didn't know how." I rested my head against her forehead.
"Dammit August let me in and stop shutting me out. I'm your fucking wife, start making me feel like I am. Make feel like I matter, that my feelings matter. I have always made you feel like I matter and if there was I time I didn't I'm sorry because I never meant to make you feel that way."
"God how in the hell did I get blessed with you. You are so precious and here I am fucking up."
"August this shit wouldn't hurt so much if I didn't love you the way I do. I just want us to be happy, but its like its too much to ask. I'm tired of crying and being hurt. I'm just tired of it all August. There is only so much a person can take no matter how much you love them."
"Desire hear me out. I'm willing to do whatever, just don't divorce me. Help me to help us be better. I love you and my damn kids too much to let this be the end. I need you baybeh."
Tears streamed down her face as they did mine.
"I need you Desire. I need you. Please stay with me." I kissed her lips in-between my words.
"Dammit August I need you too."
I lifted her and carried her into my room. I didn't want to have sex. I just wanted to hold her, that's all I needed.
"Desire does that mean you gon' come to therapy with me tomorrow?"
"Yes August. If you are willing to make this work so am I, but August my heart can't keep being abused and neglected. I didn't give it to you to mistreat it. I gave it to you to love and cherish it."
"I know baybeh and I'm so sorry fa' all the pain I have caused you within the last year. You didn't deserve none of that." I linked my hand with hers.
"Let me go check on the kids." Desire broke free from my hold to go check on Dayvion and Shariah.
I laid there and looked at the ceiling and had a moment with God. "Lord thank you fa' giving me another chance at getting things right. I ask that you keep my marriage in peace. Guide our hearts and most importantly our spirits. In Jesus name I pray Amen."
I had just finished praying when Desire walked in. She walked back over to the bed and laid down.
"The kids okay?"
"Yeah they are both knocked out, but I know it won't be long before they both wake up."
I slid closer to Desire and rubbed my hand up and down her hip. She looked at me with narrowed eyes. She grabbed my hand and stopped me from rubbing her hip.
"Damn I can't touch you now."
"No."
"Okay cool."
I moved back over and she slid down and laid on her side. I moved closer to her and wrapped my arm around her waist. "I love holding you close like this." I kissed her temple.
She didn't respond and rubbed her stomach in lazy circles. I had no idea it was affecting her until I heard a low moan.
"Desire."
Desire
I heard him calling my name, but I was trying to ignore him. He didn't realize that he was effecting me with his simple touch. I hated that he had that effect on me. I tried scooting away from him, but he held me tighter.
"August let me move over."
"Why?" He breathed into my neck causing my eyes to roll into the back of my head.
"Because I said so."
"That ain't no damn ansa."
"Well to me it is now move so I can move."
"No." He rolled me on my back and hovered above me. "Let me make you feel good. I don't want nothing, but to pleasure you." He flicked his tongue and I knew what the hell he meant.
"August no!"
"No." He raise his brow and smirked.
He unbuttoned my jeans and I grabbed his hands. " August don't."
Of course he had to be hard-headed and ignore me. Within seconds I was out of my pants and underwear. He looked at me through hooded eyes and snaked his long tongue out and ate me like the last supper. He had me gripping the spread for dear life.
"Shit!"
His head moved back and forth as his tongue moved in and out of me. His tongue trailed up, sucking and nipping at my clit. It sent shockwaves throughout my body. His tongue game was gon' be the death of me. I was barely holding on as he made love to my wet lips.
I was on the verge of cumming and he stopped for a minute and smirked before going right back in.
"August I cumming!" I screamed out as my body shook.
I clit was sensitive now, but he still didn't stop. The pleasure was so intense I thought I was gon' pass out. I felt like I was having an outer body experience as tears of pleasure leaked from my eyes.
I felt that sensation build again and I came yet again. Still he didn't stop.
"Oh My God! August!" My body was in a climatic tidal wave and I couldn't stop the pleasure he was giving me. I arched my back and practically ripped the spread off the damn bed.
He pulled back long enough to tell me that I tasted good. He continued letting his mouth work me over and after what seemed like forever he finally rose up. I laid there not able to move. My breathing was heavy and shallow. I felt like a wet noodle.
He walked out of the bathroom with a wet washrag and cleaned me up. He slid my panties back on and gave me a pair of his shorts, sliding them on.
He got in behind me and pulled me close to him.
"I love you Desire."
That was the last thing I heard before I was in deep sleep.
Just a lil filler until I get to the deeper stuff....
Excuse Mistakes!
