Ch 10

                                    

                                          
It has been a month since Christmas. I barely had time to pack, it's not like I was going to need anything anyways. My clothes soon wouldn't fit me. I took every piece of jewelry I owned
                          
My baby bump was barely visible but it was there. Maybe even a little too big for 15 weeks or maybe it was the bloating
                          
My current abode is a bright green room that was too big for the amount of stuff I brang. Tanner gladly took me under his wing already expecting this
                          
The bed was way too small compared to my old one and it had one of those aged wooden frames that looked as if it would collapse at any moment. A orange lamp stood at the right corner of the room opposite of the bed. Next to the box looking tv near the door that stood on a wooden stand, was a old, half full wooden bookshelf. 
                          
I left the room and fixed myself a bowl of cereal sitting down on a stool in the kitchen. My stomach turned, not because of the cereal it was in fact quite delicious. But today is the day I have decided to tell Aiden, again, but this time I will actually do it
                          
I could already imagine his reaction. Him leaving Sierra, for me, saying he loved me again and he was scared that he wasn't enough for me. Saying he will step up to the plate and do what he needs to do. I could see it now
                          
Caleb came out of his room "goodmorning" he said, while pouring himself some cereal as well. Over the course of me being here Caleb became like another one of my brothers. When Tanner wasn't able to drive me somewhere Caleb would, my own personal Uber. Right on cue, Tanner walked from behind the brick wall. He came up to me taking the silver spoon from MY hand and taking a spoonfull of MY!! cereal into his mouth "let's go" 
                          
"Let's go-o?" I said, my voice cracking "Let's go!?" It started getting hard to breathe
                          
Tanner looked at me, with a frown "Wha-"
                          
"Why would you do this to me? To me of all people? I'm growing a human and you're being selfish and taking something from me" The tears were overflowing, I couldn't help it
                          
"I'm sorry?" 
                          
"Yeah, you better be fucking sorry, I don't even want this anymore" I stood up with blurry eyes throwing the plate in the sink and walking away
                          
I quickly got inside Tanners red 2009 Camaro a present from our one and only somethinare grandparents. My arms crossed as the tears still rolled down my face uncontrollably. 
                          
What the fuck
                          
We drove to school in silence, I hope he is taking this time to think of what he's done
                          
On the way to school they eventually stopped and instead was replaced with dread
                          
My feet took dreadful steps towards the school. One of the creepy guards greeted me I replied with a grunt. Sweat was forming between my clenched fists and my breathing was unsteady. Going past the luchroom I entered the girls bathroom 
                          
Girls were scattered putting makeup on or talking to their friends. I walked to a metal sink and and took a deep breath putting a loose strand that fell from my bun behind my ear. I can do this! I chanted mentally staring at my reflection. Besides my jacket and scarf I wore a grey t-shirt with flower prints in the middle and severly ripped jeans with grey leggings underneath and black boots with slight heels. With another deep breath I exited the bathroom and walked to the cafe
                          
With every step my legs felt ready to buckle. I stopped at the double doors of the cafeteria took one more long deep breath before plastering a fake smile on my face and entering 
                          
I could be an actress with the performance I've put on
                          
My gaze immdiatley met my group of friend at their usual table and...him. My smile faltered for a second, but only for a second, the show must go on. I turned away from them and went in the direction of my brother. I couldn't deny that ever since I have left home I missed him. He tossed me a grin and then grabbed the closest girl to him and sat her on his lap patting the space the girl was previously in