Ch.16

                                    

                                          
~TRIGGER WARNING~
Violence, anxiety, abuse, and mentions of self harm.
Jiung pov:
I slowly open the door to see Intak sleeping with Soul in his arms. The two of them have been through a lot and it hurts to see them going through this again. But I know that whatever happens we'll all have each other to lean on. Cam yawns and rubs her eyes as she sleepily shuffles down the hall. 
"Are they okay?" 
I flash her a smile and squeeze her in my arms. 
"They will be. They just need the support of their mates. I think it's time we all talk about our pasts." 
She looks up at me with her cute curious eyes and her bunny ears perked to the side. I can't help but smile and pat her head. 
"Can you wake them up for me? I'm gonna start on breakfast." 
She nods excitedly before skipping in the room and jumping on the two peaceful boys. They both capture her in a hug between them but groan and give up once she starts yelling for them to get up. I laugh at the scene before leaving to the kitchen. Keeho sat at the bar with his coffee and his eyebrows scrunched in concentration. I walk up behind him wrapping my arms around his waist and resting my chin on his shoulder. He snaps out of his daze to flash me a smile and peck my cheek. 
"It's going to be okay. He wouldn't dare lay a hand on her and he cares too much about us to just leave for the fights. It's in his past now. He'll keep it that way." 
He nods trying to believe my words. Intak comes rushing in with two clingy mates behind him. 
"They're ganging up on me!! This isn't fair!" 
He got tackled to the ground and pampered with kisses while they all giggled together. Intak showed off his strength by picking them both up by himself. Keeho smiles at me realizing I was right. Intak knows what he has here. He wouldn't abandon the family that we found. I leave the wrestling children to go check on our other two mates who were likely still sleeping in the living room. Jongseob layed snuggled into himself on the corner of the pallet we made. The entire floor was open but he looked so peaceful where he was. I swear that boy could sleep anywhere. I furrow my eyebrows as there's no sign of Theo. I open the door to the master bedroom which had a king mattress in the center which wasn't quite big enough for all seven of us. I knock on the bathroom door. 
"Theo-ah? You in there?" 
I hear sniffling from the other side of the door and start to panic. I try to open the door only to find it locked. My heart sinks. Please don't be what I think it is. I try to find something to pick the lock but the urgency of the situation changes my mind. I slam my shoulder into the door a few times before it finally gives way and I stumble in. Theo looks up at me with a pained expression. I rush to him falling on my knees beside him. I grab his arms frantically searching for any sign of new wounds. I sigh as I only find his fading scars. The blade sat open on the floor but untouched. I quickly grab it throwing it in the trash before engulfing him in a hug. I let the tears roll down my cheeks that I had been holding from the stress. 
"I'm sorry." 
His voice was less than a whisper I almost didn't hear it. I wipe my tears before facing him placing my hand on the back of his neck while resting my forehead on his. 
"I'm so proud of you okay? You did good" 
If Keeho would have found him he would have scolded him for not coming to us but I knew all he needed was reassurance. 
"Should we get the bandages back out?" 
He nods shyly and I pull out a pack of plain bandaids from my bag. I place one on each of his arms and draw a smiley face on the left side and the words I love you on the right. He smiles at the bandages but his face goes dark again as he realizes that his mates would have to see them. When Theo was first struggling with this we came up with the bandages as a way for him to not have to talk about it. When he wore them everyone immediately knew without him having to explain it. It also made him happy seeing the cute designs his mates would draw to comfort him. 
I lead him out of the bathroom and into the seat next to Keeho. He kept his head down as Keeho greeted him before giving me a confused look at the boys grim state. I discreetly nod towards his wrists and his eyes follow. Once he sees them his eyes widen in worry and shock. It seemed everyone's past was haunting them lately. I'm sure that Intaks relapse caused Theo thoughts to run wild thinking about his own addiction. I slide a bandaid across the table to Keeho with the permanent marker and turn to make breakfast. He doesn't say a thing as he opens it and gently grabs Theos arm to place his bandaid. He draws a flower with vines and thorns. The boy smiles and rests his head on Keehos shoulder. He found comfort in their silent understanding. 
I decide to make a light meal because considering our luck Jongseob might feel too pressured to eat. And just as I'd predicted the kid just pushed his eggs around his plate not taking a single bite. Intak leans over and scoops some of Jongseobs food onto his own plate to lessen the load a little. Jongseob smiled and finished 3 bites before he was done. Keeho pats him on the back and takes his plate which he returns with a smile of appreciation. 
"How about we get out today? Go to the beach?" 
Everyone perks up at the idea and Theo and Soul race to the room to change clothes. I pack a few extra pairs of boxers knowing Jongseob would probably complain about sand in his once we leave. 
No one pov:
Cam dressed in a two piece with an open back and skirt bottoms with a frilly white sundress on top. She pinned her hair up in little low buns underneath her ears. Looking at helrself in the mirror she realized she had gained a little weight. She never ate much while she lived alone. She barley had money for rent much less food. But now her body had demension and curves. She wasn't use to it at all. She thought about what her mates would want in a partner. Would they really want someone who let themselves go? Someone with thick thighs and a round tummy? She slips off the dress without a second thought replacing her cute swimsuit with a simple one peice. She covered it with a baggy tee-shirt and some joggers. She decided to leave her hair down to frame her chubby cheeks. There, maybe she could be seen with them now.
Once she exists her room she plasters on a fake smile before meeting the boys in the car. 
"Baby are you sure you won't get too hot in that? Here at least put your hair up yeah?" 
Theo went to hand her a rubberband from around his wrist but she just shook her head with a smile that didn't even show her dimples. 
"I'm okay. My hair looks better down don't you think?" 
Theo nodded wearily not wanting to say the wrong thing to upset her. Jiung watched in silence being the only one to pick up on her nervous fidgeting. This trip really was putting them through the loop but he knew they could overcome it.