Part - 20

                                    

                                          
We lie under the comforter snuggled into each other. I was caressing her arm and then eventually asked softly, "Tejasswi, why was Ruhi born premature?"
Teju put her head on my chest making eye contact and her eyes well filled with little pain. I calmly waited for her to reply. 
"When I was in my seventh month, one day I came back from grocery shopping and when I entered the house and was moving towards kitchen, suddenly I felt a high pain in my abdomen and my pants were covered with sticky liquid. I thought my water broke but then I realized it was blood and I panicked." The pain in her voice tugged at my heart and I wished I would have been there to support her. 
" I called Shruti as I couldn't think of anything else and she called ambulance and we went to hospital. Doctor told me I am having preterm reputure of membranes and they immediately need to do a c section otherwise child might feel suffocated. I was scared but I knew I have to do what's important and I agree." 
The loneliness in her eyes and distance in her voice made me feel guilty as if it was my mistake that I wasn't there for her and my daughter. I so wanted to hold her hand when she brought our daughter into the world. I know it's not my mistake but I so wanted to witness each moment. 
"Doctor operated me and Ruhi was born, she was too tiny and her lungs were not completely working so they have to take her to NICU and keep her in incubator for a month before she could come back home." My heart broke at this moment for my little princess and Teju. I rubbed her back giving her my silent apology and comforting her. She snuggled into me before continuing, " That one month in hospital was the toughest. Managing everything made me miss you. Shruti and his husband really stood by my side and helped me a lot."
I am really grateful to them too and glad that at least Teju had someone though the urge to be that someone is too high in me. I wish I could go back in time and hold my daughter after birth and support Teju through the whole process. 
" Teju, why didn't you dated after Ruhi was born?" I asked as I was really curious to know. 
" You know my history with men, I didn't wanted to get hurt."
" I am not talking about serious realtionship but casual ones or just a date or so?" 
"I wanted to focus on Ruhi and give her all love and attention. I didn't wanted her to get confused seeing me with men and getting attached to them eventually for her heart to be broken. I wanted her to feel secure and let's be honest very few men are interested in women with a kid as they don't want to take responsibility. So I didn't wanted Ruhi to get hurt beacuse of a casual fling."
I turned as Over and kept my hand on Teju's cheek , locking our gazes. "Tejasswi sorry for not being there when you needed me the most but I promise to be always there for you and our princess. I will always support and stand by your side from now on. You don't have to feel lonely or take all responsibilities alone." I could see her walls again getting high and her mask getting back in place listening to my words. Before she could think further and push me away I kissed her lips hard loosing ourselves into each other again. 
I kissed each an every corner of her beautiful body making her feel with my actions that I am not here just for physical realtionship but will always be there emotionally too. I wanted to make love to her slow so that she could feel each of my moment and our closeness and give me a chance to win her heart.  
This time I took explored her at my leisurely pace, kissing at her collarbone and Tham licking my way down. I so wanted to mark her but I know I can't because I don't know how Teju will react if Ruhi sees it and asks anything about it but I hope to change that soon. 
I settled on top of her and could feel she was were with all the kissing and foreplay. I entered her and her heat engulfed me but I didn't Start moving. I stayed still within fir few moments till she recognizes the intimacy we have. She opened her eyes and locked them with me, "Karan..."
She was about to say something but suddenly her face changed, it went from full of emotions and knowing what I am try to do to let's just get done with it but I was in no mood take this attitude any more. Even when she said,"Karan, move...", I didn't and after a few moments I started moving taking my sweet time with slow thurst as I wanted to remember each second of us together. 
She groaned in frustration but I was not ready to end what we started too soon so I continued taking her slowly, making love to her with all that I have, showering her with soft kisses. Finally she got the message and stop processing and wrapped her hands around me neck, pulling my face down for a slow kiss and we got lost in each other. 
We are snuggled together, cuddling, and it was already 2 at night. I knew I will have to go I can't stay here because we have no explanation to tell Ruhi why I stayed the night and Tejasswi too had still not made up her mind completely about us. So I got up, get ready and kissed her forehead saying, "Good Night my sweet little love." The peace on her face while sleeping give me peace too and before I couldn't leave and left for my home. 
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Is this a start of beautiful journey of togetherness or the silence before storm?