Chapter 32 Josephine

                                    

                                          
I was pacing the floor of our bedroom, absolutely seething at August. It wasn't so much that he did something without telling me or that he went without me, it's why he went without me. He doesn't trust my strength nor my ability to take care of myself. He doesn't think I'm capable of handling things, whether physically or mentally. He doubted me, and that was not okay.
I felt my blood boiling with anger that I had no idea what to do with. I wasn't stable enough to leave the room and communicate with anyone so just continued pacing the room, burning a path in the rug. My phone started ringing and I foolishly wondered if it was August. Why would he call me when we can mindlink? I answered without looking at the caller idea, 
"Hello?" I grumbled. 
"Well hello, Susy Sunshine." I squinted at the voice on the other end, pulling my phone away and looking at the caller idea. I grinned, placing the phone back on my ear, 
"April!" I squealed. 
"That's much better." My sister in law laughed. 
"Jared mentioned that you might need some girl talk." April said. I cursed my brother for telling on me. 
"Maybe...." I was so not in the mood to discuss my love life with my idiot mate right now.
"I'm honestly surprised you're having a hard time with this. You grew up in this world, JoJo." April echoed my brother's thoughts. 
"It's not the Luna part or the werewolf part I'm struggling with." I mumbled. 
"Oh." April said. 
"I'm having a little trouble with letting him mark me." I admitted. 
"Ah, yes, I had issues with that too. The whole ownership thing bothered me, but then your mom explained to me what it really means." She paused, waiting for me to stop her if she wasn't barking up the right tree. I said nothing so she continued,
	"She told me that it expresses the bond and love your mate has for you, it's a way for you two to fully and truly merge your souls. The mark let's mates connect on a level that humans will never get to experience and that's a gift. It's not about ownership or control. Sure, wolves like their mates to be marked so other wolves don't try to stick their nose where it doesn't belong, but that's not the bigger picture." April sounded exactly like my mother so I had no doubt those words came from her. 
"It's just all so different from how I imagined it." I sighed.  
"You never imagined being mated to a wolf." April said knowingly. 
"No, not really." 
"Would you change it, if you had a choice?" April asked. 
"No!" I said so quickly I surprised myself. I could practically hear April's smirk. 
"You good?" She laughed and I nodded quickly before realizing she couldn't see me, 
"Yeah, I'm good." Jared was right, talking to April did help. 
She didn't say much, but it was enough to make me realize that I was holding on to something that didn't matter anymore; a life that didn't matter anymore. I wouldn't trade August or our relationship for anything
"Talk to you later, sis." I said before hanging up with April. 
But, none of this changed the rage I currently felt for my mate, which, in hindsight, also made sense. I guess no one can make you crazy like the person you love. 
After a while, I smelt Cinnamon Rolls from outside the door. I glared at the door as it opened and revealed my very timid, very frightened, mate. 
"Josie..." He whispered, shutting the door behind him.