If only...

                                    

                                          
A/N: 
Book: If only...
Chapter: I can't without them!
Izuku's POV:
After my talk with RG Aizwa came in and carried me back to our new home. He also told me that I would spend the days with Nezu from tomorrow onwards. This was the reason why I was with Nezu in one room and looking at a chess board he had placed on the table in front of me.
Nezu: Why don't we play a game of chess and every time someone losses a piece the opponent will ask a question.
Hm?
Why would you want to do something like this?
Should I?
It would be fun but I don't know... the stakes are too high!
But I could also gather some information too!
Maybe..
Maybe he won't be asking much about the LOV....
And if he does I could just refuse to answer or maybe even run out of the room...
Me: Okay let me prepare the chessboard. White or Black?
Nezu: Black.
Me: Ok.
And this is how our little chess game began. I never gave him a chance to even take one of my pieces except 5 pieces. In contrary to him miserable failing I took every single peace.
1 White Peace:
Nezu: How did you get to be part of the LOV?
Me: They saved me after I saved one of them. But I also broke into their lair while also trying to search for shelter.
Nezu: I heard from RG that you were running around the city covered in blood is that true?
Me: Yeah.
Nezu: I am sorry.
Me: hm?
2 White Peace:
Nezu: Do you want to go back to them?
Do I want to go back?
...
I do!
I miss them but...
There is no way they would take me back
Me: Yes and no.
Nezu: Could you explain it to me.
Me: I want to go back but I know it is not possible so I won't chase after something impossible.
Nezu: I see.
1 Black Peace:
Me: Why are we doing something like this?
Nezu: Oh I just wanted to get to know you better.
Me: Is that so?
Nezu: Yes. I heard from Aizawa that you can hack and I wanted to see how intelligent you are myself and what better way than to play a game of chess.
Me: I see.
3 White Peace:
I sacrificed another piece in order to usher him in my trap.
Nezu: Did you ever kill someone? Even if it was self-defense. It is not unheard of gang fights on the streets after all.
Me: No.
Nezu: Never?
Me: Hm. As you can see I am very weak all I ever did was run away and hide until they left me alone again. I had no chance going after someone with a quirk after all.
Nezu: You have a point there.
4 White Peace:
Still haven't found the trap?
Nezu: Do you think you could live here?
Hm?
Why the change of topic so sudden?
Me: ... I... I don't know.
Nezu: Okay then how about this? How do you feel living with Aizawa and Mic?
Me: I guess they are not bad people.
Nezu: No. They are not and both of them already see you as their son. You can consider yourself very lucky Izuku
5 White Peace:
Nezu: Do you want to attend UA?
Me: Me?
Nezu: Yes. If you want to, I could arrange something for you.
Me: No. I don't think I belong in any classes.
Nezu: How about only the theory part? You still need some education or would you rather stay with me and let me teach you stuff?
Me: You would?
Nezu: Yes. You seem to have a brilliant mind and your heart at the right point. So of course I would like to recruit you.
Me: Then if I need to I would like to stay with you and avoid class 1A. They are a little bit to much for me.
Nezu: I understand.
After that I played a move after another not letting him ask any more question and I personally didn't had any myself. This was how we played some time in silent. However it didn't take long for me to end the game.
Me: Check mate!
With that our game was over and Nezu totally fell for my trap.
Nezu: You got me good there. It was such a brilliant trap. I didn't even realize it till it was too late!
Me: Well it is fun playing with you!
Nezu: You never stop amazing me. After I heard of a boy that survived on the street quirkless. I was so intrigued but seeing how intelligent you are this doesn't surprise me anymore.
Me: ... I needed to find a way to get rid of all the free time so I sneaked into the local library a lot and read all the books there.
Nezu: I see.
Me: Can I go to the bathroom?
Nezu: Sure. Wanna play another round?
Me: Sounds good to me.
Although I won't be able to playing another round after this...
I was happy to see that he was not following me to the bathroom. Once I was in all I wanted to do was either escape or end this life. After talking with Nezu it was clear to me that I lost my place in live and had nowhere to go. I didn't had a purpose any longer and so I went over to the mirror and broke.
All I had to do was punch it and it began shattering in a couple of pieces. My hand was bloody and I watched my own blood drop to the floor. There was no pain I could feel. The only evidence that I was really injured was my hand and the pieces of glass from the mirror stuck under my skin.
I looked down on the floor that was now covered with my own blood and shards from the broken mirror.
Me: I don't belong here....
I bent down and took a pretty large piece in my hand and looked into the mirror. All I could see was a small and very thin boy that had pail white skin and dark circles around his eyes. The glittering green eyes that I had were gone and instead I had just dull green ones.
Me: I am sorry...
With the shard in my hand, I closed my eyes and let some tears fall down while I placed it on my neck. I was ready to make the move and end my life once and for all. One deep cut and I was dead.
???: IZU, NO!