Heartache - healing part 4

                                    

                                          

           Atsumu and I sat on the couch, he had his head laid on my shoulder. He looked tired, he was overthinking about our daughter rose so I think it's understandable. I rub his head softly and he moves his head towards my hand wanting more contact. I smile at the sight and kiss his cheek. His cheeks immediately got red I chuckled at the sight. He buried his face in my side as I continue to rub his head.
                I'm still curious about where Noya and Osamu went. But hey, he's my husband and he should always go first. I mentally sigh, everything interesting happens when I'm taken away from it. They should be fine I guess.
                                    Osamu
             Nishinoya and I sat in some room we found in the cabin. It had a chair dresser and a nice bed that we were both sitting on. "So.. is there something I could do to gain the confidence to talk to him?" Nishinoya asked and I shake my head. I looked defeated as he sighed softly. "Doesn't mean we can't try!" I say and he shakes his head. "Try what? This is pointless, avoiding him will make this twenty times easier." He said and this time I sigh in response. 
           I place my hand on his thigh grabbing his attention. "Just think, you guys were such close friends. Wouldn't you hate to lose such a great thing? You'll miss him I know you will." I could see him debating his next response based on his expressions. "But isn't it better and easier to avoid everything and keep the peace? I can talk to him later..." I could see the tears starting to build up in his eyes. I smile softly wiping the tears. "Sure, but you have to promise me you'll actually do it," I said and his cheeks seemed to have flushed. 
              I raise an eyebrow at the sight and he shakes his head vigorously. "No! I don't want to... ever..." Nishinoya said causing me to shake my head in disappointment. "But haven't you considered how he feels?" I say and his eyes widen. I could feel my anxiety rising from such a topic, I push it to the side and stand up looking down at him. "How do you think he would feel if you just started avoiding him forever because he didn't accept your feelings. He'll never be the same, he'll be scared to turn anyone down! if you love him you'd always wanna see him smile, laugh, you'd kill to see those beautiful eyes every day, and... and..." I could feel my guilt starting to eat me alive. 
           I fall to my knees and place my face in the nice blanket as I could feel tears start becoming viable in my eyes. Fuck, I can't be thinking about that stupid mistake while I'm trying to help someone. I could feel his hand placed on my back softly moving back and forth trying to soothe me. "Hey it's alright... I'll try okay? I'm sorry, I understand what you were talking about." Nishinoya says and I look up at him teary-eyed and all. "Really?" I ask and he nods with a soft smile. 
             I wipe the tears from my eyes and give him a soft hug. He hugs me back rubbing my back softly. I could feel my stomach growl from the lack of food causing me to blush. "You hungry?" Nishinoya says and I chuckle. "Maybe.. we should head out, if he's out there I'll be there for you okay?" I say and he had given me a soft okay. With that, we stood up and headed out of the room and to the kitchen.
            When we made it to the kitchen we saw the one and only. "Azumane, right?" I ask and he turns around quickly at the sound of his name. He nods and glances down at Nishinoya. "I'd like to ease the tension alright? Let's just talk, I know such a subject is touchy." I say and he nods gladly taking up my offer. I slightly push Nishinoya towards the taller male. Nishinoya instinctively grabs my hand causing me to blush. His grip was tight, he was terrified. 
              I act like nothing is really going on and smile waiting for them to talk. "Asahi, I'm sorry for pushing my feelings on you so fast and expecting you to understand immediately. Please, forgive me!" Nishinoya bowed to Azumane's surprise. "Noya please, it's okay. It's my fault for not saying anything, I know I probably hurt you so much. If anything I'm sorry about not telling you my feelings about her.." Azumane says and Nishinoya tightens his grip at the sound of her.