Sleepover

                                    

                                          
"Sohma I should-" I start to say as Sohma walks us down a hallway not typically used during lunch.
He cuts me off as he continues walking, "Should what? Apologize, for what? I mean recently you have fucked up so many times it's hard to keep track."
"That's not fair." I try and argue even though secretly I know he's right.
He laughs turning a corner, "Not fair? Ha! The only thing that isn't fair is the fact that im being put through the ringer because you don't understand how to control your emotions. Speaking of, so much for keeping our relationship a secret huh?"
"We'll what was I supposed to do? Cherry was all over you, and wouldn't stop! I had to say something!" I say actually a little upset that he didn't seem to notice her behavior.
Finally we reach our small disclosed destination, a small corridor my mother told me about where almost no one goes. We stop and Sohma let's my arm go turning back to me, "She's always like that Iro, us dating wouldn't change that. Maybe if you had told me you had an issue with her I could have done something! But instead you just left me in the dark and then put me on full blast in front of everyone at my table!"
I cross my arms recalling the recent event, "Oh you mean when you made me look a like a fool because you denied our relationship?!"
Sohma throws his arms up angrily, "Yeah cause that's what you fucking wanted! I was just trying to play the part!"
"Well I changed my mind after seeing Cherry, and when I asked you, you still denied it! In front of everyone!" I yell hoping we're far enough away from everyone to hear.
"I panicked Iro! Last time we had talked we still agreed on keep it a secret! You put me on fucking blast!" He defends himself.
He was right. I had randomly changed my mind in the spur of the moment. 
I had caused this, and I thought it was just me who wanted to keep us a secret but I didn't even think about Sohmas feelings. I only thought about myself, and impulsively at that. 
I was still a fool, but not because of Sohma.
Realizing my mistake I lower my head ashamed, "Yeah, you're right. I didn't even think about you when I said that, I'm sorry."
"And what about when you made the Higo comment?" He asks reminding me of my tactic used to make him confess our relationship.
Though I want to bring up Cherry I release he never actually entertained her so instead I fully admit my wrongs, "Yeah, I'm sorry about that to."
Sohma thinks for a moment before letting out a long sigh, "Less than a week and I'm already exhausted."
Exhausted. Yeah, I guess that's fair. Was this already it? 
Ready for the worse I look back up facing him, "I know I'm a lot, and I completely understand if you want to back out now."
Sohma looks at me and takes a deep breath before responding, "Ya know maybe for my own sanity I should."
Like an arrow piercing my heart.
I nod but keep my head down so he doesn't notice the tears forming, "Okay, do what's best for you. I want you to be happy Chiaku."
Wait. I don't know what it was but something in that moment made me say his first name. I had never said it to him before either.
Shocked at my own words I look up and see him also a little taken back. He regains himself quickly and moved his hand to my cheek, "Damn, I almost like my name when you say it."