Where it begins

                                    

                                          
Monday 
Rose pov
Me and gia walked home from school almost in silence. Something was bothering her and it was so blatantly obvious. She means the world to me and I just want to know that she's safe and happy. Breaks my heart that I don't know how to cheer her up. On the walk home, there were a couple boys from the younger years chatting about gias uncle. We couldn't hear what they were saying. But they kept looking at us and I heard the world uncle in their sentence. Doesn't take a genius to figure it out 
"Gia, I know you hate confrontation. But it might be good for you if you learn some fighting moves. I can teach you how to punch. Me and Arthur go-" 
"Thanks rose. But I don't want to. Let them say whatever and just leave it. Please. For me" she begs but I'm too stubborn to agree 
"No. Absolutely not. This isn't normal bullying g. It's because of something that kills people. I don't want you to wake up tomorrow and see your dead body in the news paper" I said with stinging tears in my eyes. She didn't reply and instead we walked to my house in utter silence. Every step was louder than our breathing as the pair of us were too scared to be the first one to speak. Fear! That's what's filled up inside me, running through my veins. But nothing can be done. Not unless rose tries to cooperate
We finally arrived home and we both went straight up to my bedroom, neither of us in the mood to greet my family. Gia took her place on my bed and I went straight to my wardrobe 
"What are you doing?" Gia asked as I threw all the crap I hide in my wardrobe on the floor
"I'm looking for something" I said as i carried on the search. She laughed a little at the amount of shit that lives at the bottom of my wardrobe 
"Jesus Rose. Havnt you ever heard of a dustbin?" She asked jokingly as she looked at the food that I just chucked from my wardrobe 
"Well I don't always have the effort for that. Whereas I can open my wardrobe from my bed and just chuck shit in it" I explain
"Ay. Gotcha" I say as I pull out a notebook
"It was hiding under the pizza" I explain as gia gives me a look of disgust. I go over to the bed and sit next to her 
"Care to explain what the fuck it is?" She asked chuckling at my enthusiasm 
"This is my insult note book. Every page had a different insult on it" I say as I flip through the pages. All the pages had a single insult in the middle and then many drawings surrounding it in relation to the insult
"Who the fuck has the time for that? Don't get me wrong. It's impressive but I honestly don't know how you have time or patience" gia says 
"It's called maths. Boring af so I do this instead" I reply with a proud grin on my face 
"Listen rose, thank you for trying but I won't be insulting anybody. I don't want to stoop as low as them and I definitely don't want to make things worse" she says making me frown 
"OK fine. But can I atleast read you some. I'm quite proud" we both burst out laughing but I fight through the giggles to read 
If you had one more brain cell, it would be lonely 
You look like something I draw with my left hand 
If stupidity was painful, you'd be in agony 
Anybody who told you to be yourself gives the worse advice 
"So what you think? They are my favourites but there's plenty more" I say 
"Oh god. No wonder you're shit at maths" she says making me playfully wack her with the notepad
"I'm not that bad" I say 
"7×9?" Gia asks
"Lord knows" I reply 
"3×6?" 
"Give me and easier one" I beg 
"8×8?" 
"Ay! I know this one. 64. Wanna know how I know that?" I ask 
"I'm not sure I do" she replies 
"It's a rhyme. I ate and I ate til I was sick on the floor, 8×8 is 64" We both stay silent for a minute before we are in heaps of laughter on the floor 
"OK OK. But seriously. Please use this. I hate having to watch you get walked over. Its not fair on you and those bitches deserve this. Please" I beg 
"I've told you no. Will you just leave it rose. This is ridiculous" gia says 
"Listen alright. You're being bullied and I'm not gonna sit by and let my best friend be picked on. You're asking me to ignore it all well I can't and thats the truth" I say
"God You're so annoying" gia says 
"Atleast I'm not keeping secrets" I scream 
"What secrets? There's no secret" gia yells back 
"Don't lie to me. Somethings not right with you and you aren't telling me anything. I know when your lying. Just tell me why you're acting so fucking weird around me" with both of us almost crying, gia does something I definitely didn't expect. She rushes towards me and pulls me in for a kiss. I was frozen, too shocked to kiss her back and so she pulls away 
"I....I'm sorry. I should go" gia grabs her bag and rushes out of the house whilst I could hardly move from my position. What the fuck just happened? I wanted to kiss her back so bad but I just couldn't. Like a force was pulling me back and not allowing me to move. I love her. She must know I love her in every way possible. But...but now I've ruined everything. Oh god. What have I done? If I could've just kissed her back then she would still be here and we would be happy. Happy together. Oh shit on it!