Ch. 21 - Your Heart Will Mend

                                    

                                          
"There are too many regrets in this world. There are too many difficulties. It scares us in discordant love. But when I look at you, I don't want to retract."
最想見到你 (Let's be Together) by Bai Ann
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March 15th, 20xx. GTV Building. 01.00 PM.
"Isn't that too fast?"
A question from Pakin tickled Nanon to think his decision over. He just told Pakin about his plan and he got the same answer as Mook and Tay when he told them earlier.
"It's not too fast, you know," Nanon reasoned. "It's too late," he corrected Pakin's assumption.
"Aren't we too young for that?"
"For that, neither is too young nor too old," Nanon, again, defended his plan. "I'm too happy, I scare myself. I reached this point after all the suffering and now the happiness is in my hand. I hold it with my bare hand and it can slip through my fingers anytime. I need to do something."
Pakin laughed at his friend. "Your zodiac doesn't tell me that you can be like this."
"Put my zodiac aside, I'm just a human. I am capable to love someone this much," Nanon said. "But have you seen Ai Ohm's love for me? You'll be surprised."
Pakin shrugged. "That's why I gave up and decided not to be your company anymore. There is no space for me. I should have known sooner," Pakin looked up at the ceiling, remembering the time he left Nanon alone. His friend was crying but Pakin knew that he could not stop the tears. "I'm sorry for leaving you alone that night."
"What are you talking about? It's all in the past,"
"Thank for still being my friend,"
"Yeah, of course,"
"And I'm sorry for my attempt to kiss you that-"
"You really have to forget it, Ai Pakin,"
"No," Pakin's eyes widened. "No way," Pakin's hand hit Nanon's knee repeatedly.
Nanon scrunched his face, "What the f*ck are you doing, huh?"
"He is feeling guilty, I guess,"
Nanon turned his face to the back. There was Ohm standing at the door of the practice room and he just joined the conversation. 
The reason why Pakin stopped talking was not because Nanon interrupted him, but Ohm who suddenly appeared with hostile glare and clenched jaw. Pakin, then, realized that Ohm had heard what they were talking about. "Ai Ohm, it's not-"
"He knew that you have feeling for me," Ohm did not care about Pakin. He talked to Nanon.
Nanon got up from his seat, aware of the anger his boyfriend showing him. "Ai Ohm, you have to sit down and calm down."
"He knew. He took the chance!" Ohm's voice raised up. "And you want me to do... what? What do you want me to do? Calm down? I thought he is your close friend and he wouldn't betray you!"
Nanon clicked his tongue. He got annoyed. "He didn't betray me. We can't forbid someone to fall in love, can we? 
"So, he is in love with you,"
"I was," Pakin admitted as he getting up to be in the middle of the quarrelling couple. "Not anymore. I have a lover already."
"He even kissed you,"
"What? Wait," Nanon was surprised. "Wait, wait, you've misunderstood."
Ohm shook his head. "Okay, you can defend him all you want. I'm going to work," Ohm left the room.