Chapter 9

                                    

                                          
Subhadra: I can understand jiji but please control yourself. 
Draupadi: How Bhadrey? How? Can you say how? At first, I lost my father, then brothers and at last my sons; the real wealth of mine. Can you say now what is left in my life? Even my husbands are also lost and they are alive to fulfil their duties only. My soul sisters also become quiet. Once, our palace was full of laughters and happiness but now all are past. Even no one smiles also here. And do you know why? It's my fault. Because of me, this all happened. What would happen if I would stay in exile forever going away from all of your life? At least, my sons would stay alive. So much deads would never happen. 
Subhadra held her hands tightly and hugged her tightly. 
Subhadra: Please don't say like this jiji. What you did for this aryavart, especially for women, aryavart will be always indebted to you. If it would be any other women, would never be able to do this. You didn't think of yourself but whole aryavart. Many danveers give many things but you are best among them. Because of your determination, Dharma established in aryavart again and people will think twice from now before putting hand on a woman's dignity. Remember jiji, what bhrata told you earlier. It was needed and there is not your fault. Remember, you are Yajnaseni, you are pure like fire. Fire have to burn many things but he is never blamed and like that, you also shouldn't blame yourself. You are our jiji and we always knew that our Draupadi jiji is the strongest and you are the strength of your husbands. If you will break like this, who will handle them? Who will handle this aryavart?
Draupadi: Aryavart? Whole aryavart is blaming for this destruction. According to them, I am responsible for all this. I am the murderer of their sons, husbands, fathers and reason of their miseries. 
Subhadra: Do you think they are blaming you because this war happened? Are you sure that they won't blame you if this war won't held?
Draupadi: Meaning? What do you want to say? Say clearly. 
Subhadra: I am saying clearly only jiji
Draupadi: Don't make riddles like your brother. I am not in that condition to think about them. I know my thoughts are baseless because my sons will never return and Dharma have to cruel when people forget dharm but what was my fault? Why I am paying?
Subhadra: Jiji! It's the habit of our society to say about others. Now let it be good or bad. And some of them always keeps saying ill only without understanding the purpose. If this war won't held, they would blame you then also. Then they would say, see she is our samragyi who is thinking about herself only. She even didn't think about her self respect also. It means she won't do anything if any woman would be disrespected in front of her eyes because she thinks about her relatives only. 
Draupadi: Subhadrey!!
Subhadra: Yes jiji. We, women are always blame if we take a great decision then also. I am wondering why my bold, courageous jiji is thinking about society who could take the decision of marrying 5 men. At that time also many people told many things but you made them quiet and didn't bother with their words for you. So what happened now jiji? I know you are in grief because of your lose but why this grief? Did you really lose them? They are in your heart. When will you close your eyes, a smile should appeared in your face not tears in eyes. Then your sons can be happy. 
Draupadi: You are right Bhadrey. They are in my heart and I should feel proud over them. *smiles softly*
Subhadra: Hmm. You should take rest. I am sending breakfast at your chamber. 
Subhadra was standing in the balcony and little Parikshit was in her arms. At that time, she felt a hand over her shoulder and she didn't have to look behind to say who is that. 
Subhadra: Say swami! Why did you come here? If you need anything, you could call me.
Arjun: Why? Can't I come to my wife? By the way, thank you Subhadra. Thanks for handling Krishnaa and everyone like this. *soft voice*