chapter fifteen: chelsey pov

                                    

                                          
"I just have a bad feeling, I mean, I know she's gonna be okay, you know, because she really does have so many people who care and she has JC, I just..." I shake my head, dropping it into my face, "I don't understand how everything went so bad so quickly. At least for us. And how she's just been living like this, y'know?! Like um, the way JC says she is," I look up at Tara and Jake, exasperated as tears keep falling. Tara sighs, falling back into the couch and shaking her head,
"I can't imagine, I can't," she looks up at Jake and he sighs, rubbing his eye,
"I just can't imagine where JC is at, or you, or Franny... or anyone who is like her... family I guess. That's what you guys are," He shrugs, "It's gotta be tough," I sigh, not looking at anything in particular before speaking again,
"We all watched her grow up. And then everything was crazy here and she was an adult and JC pushed her to go to college. We obviously haven't seen her barely, but when we were barely hearing from her... I think we all were just determined to think that had to mean she was... doing well. But this..." I wave around the room and shake my head, "She was supposed to be okay. We thought because she was so independent for like ever, unless JC was intervening but he only had time off and on, you know," They both nod, Tara looking confused, "Tara?" I prod quietly,
"I saw her, that day she stayed here for the concert, I dropped by because I think Reggie or someone, they forgot something they wanted to take home here, and she hugged me that day. She said something really sweet, I just can't remember, and I don't know why!" She bites her lip, "I just feel bad. I was a stress ball that day, like horrible, and she was so sweet and I just can't imagine. I can't imagine what it takes to seem like that, so... strong, on the outside for so long when all of... whatever is happening on the inside is happening. I couldn't do it, I think," Jake shakes his head, silently wrapping an arm around her. I purse my lips, shrugging,
"Well I clearly can't considering I feel like I could pass out, throw up, and scream all at once right now," I sarcastically laugh, standing and gripping my head on both sides. I pace, shaking my head. There's no way this is happening.
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This is so short i'm so sorry. keep moving to the next chapter, i'm so sorry :(