Morning sickness

                                    

                                          
Once Bucky had finished his report he came down the stairs and sat down on the couch next to you and looked at you seriously. 
"I know you did what you thought you had to do, and I appreciate that you went in and got the data.  I wish you would have let me do it instead.  You are good for stalling for time, and I could have made it work.  I just want you safe, and you scared me today when you went in and left me to stall them first.  I was worried there were booby traps, or camera's or anything that would have compromised you.  I was worried you would get stuck in the window and I wouldn't be able to pull you out" he spoke softly while his face was serious and he seemed to be imploring you to listen. 
"It's both of our mission, Bucky" you whispered.  "I don't want you upset with me because I'm doing my job too"
"Missions change on the fly all the time.  We have more than just us to worry about now" he took your hand and gazed into your eyes worriedly.  "I can't lose you when I just found you"
"It was a quick in and out" you bit your bottom lip.
"It felt like forever" he admitted, and kissed your knuckles.  His breathing was a bit more shallow than usual, and you knew his anxiety was bothering him. 
"Okay, unless I absolutely have to, I won't do it again" you felt guilt wash over you.  You didn't want to worry him like that.  "If it makes you feel better, I'll ask Tony if I can work in the lab until the babies come.  Would that make you feel better?  Only after we get home though.  I'm not leaving this mission not right now." you whispered softly, trying to show that you really did feel awful for the circumstances that led to his anxiety. 
"It's not just for me. I want you to do this too, I know you're fully capable of finishing this mission" he bit his bottom lip and moved one of his hands to lay across your lower stomach.  "It's for the miracles we created together" he added in a soft whisper. 
"I understand" you sighed softly, and looked at him with all the love you had for him in the eyes.  "Just remember I'm not made of glass, and it's my mission too.  Ron is going to be selling to me, and I need you to be okay with that"
"As long as he doesn't do a demonstration" he bit his bottom lip again, seeming to chew at the flesh a bit.  You touched his cheek lovingly rubbing your thumb across the stubble on his face, and leaned up to softly brush your lips against his.  He eagerly leaned in and captured your lips with his own and gave a soft hum of appreciation. 
"Can we cuddle now?" you asked gently, wanting so badly to be enveloped in his arms again. 
"The grocery store closes in an hour, doll, we need to get going" he seemed concerned about the time.  You nodded, acknowledging that you had to go, and got up to go grab your purse. 
"Bucky?" you asked in a whisper.  He looked at you, and you could see the curiosity in his gaze.  "Remember that we're still a couple, please.  I need you outside of the bedroom too" you sighed softly and walked out the door, not bothering to wait for him to respond, or to come out and open the car door for you for a change.  You slipped in the passenger seat and put on your seatbelt and looked out the window forlornly.  You sighed to yourself, wishing the mission was over in a way, just so you could get out on your own once in a while.  Bucky came out quickly and locked the doors to the house before he came to the car and slipped in the front seat.  You were drowning in your own emotions, and felt like you were being more needy than you usually were. 
"Y/N" he spoke softly as soon as he finished buckling into his seat. You didn't look at him at first, you were trying to hold back tears, feeling infuriated with yourself for getting so emotional.  "Look at me" he tried coaxing you.  You finally turned your head and looked at him and felt a stray tear fall down your face. 
"I will never forget we are a couple.  I promise, as soon as we get home I'll order us a pizza and we can cuddle all you want.  If you want to drop this mission, we can go.  We have enough data to make the arrest" he looked at you sadly. 
"I'm just overly emotional right now" you shrugged, trying to just shrug it off and hide your face from him by looking down.
 "Doll" he touched your shoulder to get your attention. 
"Let's just go do groceries, you were right, it closes soon.  I'm sorry" you shook your head refusing to look back at him.  Bucky sighed heavily and took the keys out of the ignition and unbuckled himself.  He leaned over and unbuckled your seatbelt and you looked at him in confusion. 
"We can go tomorrow" he got out of the car and raced around to your side.  He opened your door, and picked you up easily and walked back towards the front door. 
"Stop being silly, you said we had to go today" you pulled back a little from him.
"We will talk in the house" he shook his head decisively.  You wrapped your arms around his shoulders and put your head against his chest feeling a little depressed deep inside.  You felt him put all of your weight on one arm and unlocked the door before opening it.  He walked in and kicked the door closed behind him and walked over to the couch and set you down on it. 
"What?" you asked softly as he crouched down in front of you and he slipped your shoes off for you.
"We can go tomorrow" he shrugged.  "I have my dame to take care of right now"
"Mission plan states we go on Sunday's, you were right" you shook your head.
"Missions change.  I'm ordering us a pizza and we are staying in and we are going to cuddle on the couch" he decided. 
"Bucky..." you sighed, already resigned to the fact that he was against this earlier. 
"Doll, let me go make you some tea.  I'll order the pizza, and you stay here on the couch.  I'll find time tomorrow to go get groceries" he gazed down at you lovingly.  "No more mission talk for tonight" he gave you a swift kiss on the cheek and stood up again, before heading into the kitchen.  He came back in a few minutes later and set down your tea on the coffee table.  He pulled you into his arms while Alpine jumped up on his shoulder and let out a loud meow.  He pulled you completely in his lap, and you nuzzled into the crook of his neck and gave a small sigh.  You knew it was selfish to want to have him to yourself for the night, and at the same time couldn't bring yourself to argue that you both should still go.  He softly rocked you a little, and kissed you on top of the head. 
"I think we both needed this" he whispered sweetly as he ran his hands up and down your back.  You saw him take out his phone with one hand and ordered a pizza and then he put his phone on the table and gave you his undivided attention.