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Chapter 13 || Just one
;hate that I'm still hoping


                            

                                
                            
                              
                                  
                              
                              
                                
                                  
                                  
                                
                              
                             
                            
                            
                          
                          

It was never my intention to show up at Nova's apartment at buck o'clock this morning, and ambush her, but after last night at the dirt track, I couldn't fucking help myself.
Those sinfully perfect lips, having that soft itty-bitty body in my hands.
Hard just thinking about it.
Then there's the truth she spoke of. Her father threatening my family. She cut me off to save me, and my family even more misery than we already persevered through on a daily basis. She did it for us. I spent all these years hating her.

"You good, man?" Asher plants a hand on my shoulder and squeezes. "You look a little pissy, sweetheart."
Dropping my water bottle beside me, I roll my eyes and lay back on the weight bench, glaring up at a smug looking Asher.
"You know you're gonna tell me at some point, may as well spit it out now and save us both some time, huh?" he coaxed.
The asshole's right, may as well otherwise he'll only guess it's about Nova, ask her, and who knows what she's gonna tell him since they're so fucking close now.
"I kissed Nova." I winced. "Like, we fully made out."
I forgo the info about the whole tittie touching, erotic kisses and the fact I was rock solid the entire time, I didn't exactly want him imagining Nova's boobs.
A slow tug appears on his lips, grinning down at me like a cat who caught the mouse.
"You guys kissed?" he whisper squealed like a bitch, barely containing his excitement. "Was it hot?" his brows wiggled.
This guy is something else, I lunge my arm out in an attempt to tip tap his stupid self, but my defenceman quick-stepped backwards, chuckling.
"Ey, you can't blame a guy for trying to get a little summat summat." he teased, swatting my hand away.
"You're an idiot." I grunt.
"Yeah, heard that before." he feigns offence before turning serious suddenly. "So, you kissed my home girl, that's a good thing, right?"
I thrust the metal bar above my head. "I mean, I thought it would be, it was amazing and jesus, it's all I've wanted to do since she came back around, but,"
"But?" he prompts.
I groan out of frustration. "Fuck if I know." 
Settling the bar on the base, I push myself up. 
Can I trust her? Will she stay? Am I going to hurt her? Is she going to hurt me?
"I just think too much has happened and maybe it's not such a clever idea to, y'know, go there with her. I'm not the same guy I was when I younger." I admit, quietly of course.