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T A E H Y U N G
When Jennie told me that she's pregnant I couldn't believe it at first. 
I've never thought about what I'd be like as a father but I'm having positive thoughts about it now.
"Uhhhm Tae? are you gonna say anything?" -Jennie
"I can't wait to be a father, Jennie, thank you." -Taehyung 
Jennie squealed in joy and hugged me tight. 
After that day, we went to get a checkup.
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The doctor said that they can now identify the gender so we're waiting for the result. 
I'm currently waiting for Jennie to tell me the news. 
After what seemed like years, she came out and entered the waiting room. 
"Sooo....?" -Taehyung 
"ITS A GIRL!" -Jennie
No matter what gender, I would've been happy. 
A boy or a girl, I'd still love them the same. 
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J E N N I E
Everything seems to be happening so fast. I'm already going to have a child, it's crazy! 
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Jisoo didn't come back after what happened yesterday. 
I'm disappointed. 
Every time I think of me as a mom, I remember that Jisoo isn't supportive. 
She's been one of the biggest parts of my life, why does she have to go against me now? 
Everything good always has a bad. 
It's your responsibility to overcome the negativity and appreciate the positivity.
But I can't seem to do that..
It's different for everybody. 
I think I'm strong and I feel strong but really it's just the cowardice of weakness hiding inside me, waiting to crawl out. 
It's feels like it's suffocating me, it's hard to explain. 
J I S O O
What was I thinking? Jennie and Chaeyoung wouldn't keep secrets away from me, like spiking a cake..? I don't get it. Nothing adds up.
I just felt so betrayed at that moment.
I've been replaying all the time I've spent with Jennie and Chaeyoung for the last few days and nothing felt wrong. 
They just acted like pregnant women -but really annoying ones.
It was normal for them to act like that since they always eat the most but it was just too much food that day. 
I've been regretting leaving that restaurant. I just ruined one of our hangouts that rarely happens because of our schedules. 
I wish I could go back in time but my anger got the best of me.