Chapter 18 - Boo you, WHORE.

                                    

                                          
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𝐀𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐝'𝐬 𝐏𝐎𝐕:



"im booking a flight and coming to england." Those lines made my heart stopped. 
He's coming over here?
Why would he take his time of the day to come and see me...?
I sigh in fustration and put my head into the pillow.
i hate feelings.
i hate every one bit of it.
i don't understand how i still like him. Afterall its nearly been 3 months. I tried focusing on myself and letting myself go.
I mean i found a boyfriend who loves me, new friends, new modelling agency. So why am i stuck on him.
Its like i need him. All the time. If i don't see him or at least hear his voice, i might just go insane. The things i did for him when i liked him. I mean my whole day is just ruined if i don't see him.
'When i liked him' That phrase so unfamiliar with me but such a warm feeling.
Why do i feel like this. It doesn't matter anyways because even if i told him i liked him, he sees her.
She's beautiful. I don't get how i ever thought we would be together you know. She's everything he wanted yet he's everything i want. I need. 
When KT told me Matt likes me i was over the moon. I was so happy i just stopped thinking about everything. But i have Tom.
I hate it.
Being with Tom and thinking about Matt
fustrates me. I wanna be with Tom so i don't hurt him. Im so tired of hurting people and for once, i just want to make this work but deep down i know i will always go for Matty. He has my heart. Always does and will.
Im not the one to deny feelings so why do i deny this one?
That im in love with him or its just pure crush and nothing more.
Ugh. i hate this.
I lift my head up once i heard knockings.
"Be there in a mintue!" I shout.
Jumping from my bed i speed across my flat and open the door.
I didn't know what or who to expect. But i defintely didn't expect is to be engulfed by huge arms.
What the fuck.
Just as i was about to cuss this creepy guy out a sweet scent hit me.
Matt.