party time

                                    

                                          






Leo


It's finally the weekend, thank shit. 
After the weird week i had I need some normality back into my life, so I decided to go to this party Simon's been talking about all week.
It's been kinda weird with Jonathan, every time things become kinda normal and back to the way they were, I go and say or do something shitty or..unexpected. I don't even know what that is about honestly. 
He's been kinda avoiding me or i'm just not seeing enough- i mean a lot of him lately so that's what it looks like i guess. 
But it's not like it's that different from what he usually does. Before, whenever he sees me coming it's almost like he immediately runs in the opposite direction. I found it kinda funny, but now it bothers me a little. I just think i might have made him uncomfortable somehow.
Still, I don't like it, he acts like i'm gonna murder him when i see him. 
I don't really get that, i mean i do tease him from time to time, and also when Simon does i kinda tend to jump in, and then also just whenever an opportunity presents itself. 
So i guess pretty much always. That's kinda odd Leo.
Jesus, it's like i'm obsessed with the kid. 
Whatever it doesn't mean anything.
I stop with over analyzing whatever that was, and i start getting ready for the party while i'm checking my email, just incase my parents remembered they have a child. But nope.
Whatever. I'm doing just fine on my own. Who needs parents anyway.
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"Hey dude, you ready?? Mark's waiting for us outside."  Simon shouts from the hall.
"Yeah, i'm good. I'll be right out." I soon come out and we head to the party.
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I'm talking to this emo girl hogging me for like half an hour, talking about some dull professor that's apparently been hitting on her. 
That's just my fucking luck.
I kinda start to drift off to the side and check out some other people at this party, to try and get away from this lunatic. When a distressed Jonathan catches my eye. He's standing in the corner of the room with his friend next to him talking to some dude. He suddenly looks up and catches me blatantly staring at him. Probably looking like a serial killer. Chill the f out Leo.  
As soon as he sees me though he panics and tries to find an escape out of this room, he heads for the hall and then goes into some room and shuts the door behind him. 
Alright enough of this. Why does he keep running from me? Not concerning myself with why the hell is this bothering me so much, in the first place. 
I step away from the emo girl not even caring anymore and head for the room that Jonathan just went into.
I open the door and come inside. I see him crouched on the floor leaning his back on the bed. As soon as he sees me he rolls his sleeves down really fast. Okay, odd.
"What are you doing here?-no never mind, i'm just gonna go." He says and gets up heading for the door. 
I swiftly step to the side and block his way out. 
"No you're not" I say.
I see panic pass through his eyes. "Leo i'm not in the mood, if you're just checking if this room's free for you and that girl to do I don't even wanna know what, it is free cause i'm trying to leave, so....then let me leave."
he says standing nervously pulling his sleeves all the way to his fingers, waiting impatiently. He looks so small to me in that moment, like i could probably lift him with my one arm. 
Getting back to what he just said.
I try not to grin too much as i talk. "What girl?" 
"That emo looking girl you were talking to all night." he says while trying to shut himself up at the same time. With regret plastered all over his face.
I try to make a serious face.
"The emo girl huh?" I move closer to him.
"Nah, that's not what was gonna happen." I say moving even closer and closer until his back is touching the wall. 
"W-why not?" he stutters. His breathing speeding up. 
Taken by the moment and seeing how nervous he's getting i put my hands on both his sides to steady him.
His eyes set on the floor. I move my head in closer so that he feels my breath on his neck as i talk. 
"I've been thinking'bout somebody else too much lately, it wouldn't be fair to her really." I say making his body shiver under my hold. 
I move my right arm to lift his face up so that he's looking at me. 
What the hell has gotten into me? I don't know why i'm enjoying this so much..
Doesn't matter, this is too fun.
"Have you been avoiding me Jonathan?" I say, setting my eyes on his lips for a while.
He looks up at me, trying to get his blinking under control. 
"N-no, no I  I didn't. Why would I?"
he responds breathing heavy. His cheeks having gone fully red.
"That's what i'm wondering."  
"Have you been having any more good dreams you'd like to share with me?" I tease.
"I don't....think..no!." He replies defensively with his eyes having moved to my lips.
At the worst possible moment some drunk girl opens the door and stumbles in.
I take a step back while Jonathan nervously stares at the floor.
As if someone just dropped an ice bucket on him, he bolts for the door.

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I get back into the main space, and find the emo girl from before..I feel immense rage going through my body at the moment so, my half drunken self decides i might as well do what Jonathan thought i'd do..
wouldn't wanna disappoint him.
She agrees a little too eagerly, throwing me off my game, i kinda excepted some fore play but alright.
Easier for me.
I take her by her waist and pull her in a deep kiss, our tongues intertwined. For whatever reason it just doesn't feel like i thought it would, probably since my attraction to this girl is very low.
The only thing that's fueling this kiss is my anger, nothing else really.
That moron idiot walking in the room..just when i was about to-..whatever.
I don't even know why i'm getting so worked up, over..nothing.

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