Awake

                                    

                                          
I don't know if I'm dreaming or not. There's brightness everywhere. The last thing I remember is fainting in some place. I don't even know where I was. All I kept thinking about was if I was going to make it or not. If I was going to see Effy again. see my sister, Freddie. I can't believe Foster would do something like that to me. For a psychologist, he sure is fucked up.
                          
"Ana." I hear a soft timid voice say. It's faint but I'd recognize that voice anywhere.
                          
"Mum?" I say before turning around.
                          
"Yes sweetie. It's me." My mother looks so beautiful. She's engulfed in the most beautiful soft light. "Let me look at you." She says reaching out for me and I take her hands. "You are so beautiful." She takes me in her arms and hugs me. I inhale deeply and intake her scent.
                          
"I miss you so much mum."
                          
"I miss you too my love." She sighs. "You have grown into a fine young woman and I am so proud of you. There are people waiting for you. People who love you just as much as I do."
                          
"But I want to be with you."
                          
"I know you do, but you can't. I will not let you end up where I am at such a young age. I will not allow it." She places her hand on my face. "You have a good boy down there who loves you with every fiber in his being. He has been dying without you. He needs you."
                          
"But I need you too."
                          
"And you have me. I'm right here. I've been with you through everything. You never have to worry about me not being there for you."
                          
"I love you mum. So much."
                          
"I love you too, with all my heart." She kisses me on my cheek. "Time to wake up now." She whispers in my ear. I shut my eyes and open them again.
                          
X
                          
When I open my eyes, I see bright lights that focus into ceiling lights. I can't open my left eye and there are shoots of pain here and there, but I can't pinpoint the source. When everything comes into focus, I realize that I am in a hospital room. I look over and see London sleeping in a chair by the door. I look down and Freddie's head is resting on my bed as he sleeps. I lightly move my fingers and try not to wake him up but of course it doesn't work. His head rolls to the side and he lifts his head up. I quickly shut my eyes. He sighs and I feel him get out of the chair. I hear London stretching as she wakes up.
                          
"Did you want something to drink Freddie?" she asks.
                          
"No thanks. I just want her to wake up."
                          
"Don't worry. She will. She just needs to heal." I move my fingers again to see if they will notice. "Freddie, did you see that?"
                          
"See what?"
                          
"She moved. Ana moved!"
                          
"Are you sure she did?"
                          
"I wouldn't lie about this. Look again." I don't move this time. I wait about 2 minutes before I move again. "She did it again! You have to keep looking!" I love messing with my sister. It's so much fun. But I really should cut it out because I really want to see them. I slowly open my eyes and see my sister and the love of my life in God knows how long. "See! I told you she was awake!" London comes racing over to me, hugging me.
                          
"London, please go easy." I say in a raspy voice.
                          
"Sorry, I'm just so glad you're awake!" I look over and see Freddie standing in the corner. "Are you just going to fucking stand there, or are you going to hug your girlfriend?" Freddie walks up to me and hugs me, consuming me in kisses. London tells the nurse to go get the doctor. The doctor comes in and examines me to see if I'm responding to him correctly. London calls Anthea so she and Effy can come see me, but Effy doesn't come. Freddie picks up his phone and calls the gang. When they get here, a cop shows up to ask me questions.
                          
"So we found out that it was John Foster who hurt you, but why would he do that?" she asks.
                          
"Because he loved Effy. I told him that he wasn't a good counselor for her and I basically told him to fuck off. So of course he got mad because he didn't want anyone coming in-between them."
                          
"Thank you. I'll let you rest. I'll come back soon with more questions."
                          
"So how long was I out?" I ask as Freddie climbs in the bed with me.
                          
"About a month and a fucking half!" Naomi says.
                          
"It's good to see you guys though. Where's Panda and Thomas?"
                          
"Harvard." Katie answers.
                          
"Both of them?!"
                          
"Yeah. Panda's there for Philosophy and Thomas is there on a track scholarship." Emily says.
                          
"Well that will be interesting." I missed talking to my friends and my family and I especially missed being in the arms of my boyfriend. Then it hit me. "Where's Cook?" I ask. Everyone looks down and in other directions and doesn't say anything. "Guys... Where's Cook?"
                          
X
                          
So Ana is awake! But where's Cook and Effy?