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𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊Danny's POV𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊
TW- IMPLIED SH&TENDENCIES(ilysm and ur never alone x) it will start and end at *
"Well done Jace you were right"
I see nothing but red when I punch the punching bag. It swings out of control much like my fury right now, but I can't contain it.
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My knuckles sting and the familiarity of the pain is welcoming, it hugs me to the point I forget why I'm here.It invites me to overcome my anger and release all the emotions I had been keeping inside. Blood drips down my balled fist and I finally pull away. Taking deep breaths I look down at my shaking hand in which my knuckles are split due to my own actions. I silently curse the stubbornness to wear gloves or tape like Jace tells me to, but I can't help smile at the red harshness now covering my hand.
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I make my way to the gym changing rooms and run my hands under the cold water, splashing my face as I turn off the water. When I close my eyes I see her...Lily. The slight tremble of her lip and the glazing of her eyes. Weird. She thinks I'm weird for- for wanting to care for someone...to care for her. I should've known that she didn't-she wouldn't. I shake my head the word weird uttering in my head. In that moment I didn't see Lily-Anne all I saw was her. The girl who single handily broke me and Jace. I know Jace worries about me and I understand why...I didn't take it very well; surprise surprise I don't take anything well. I hate when I explode. Regret courses through me as soon as the words leave my mouth, but in those moments I can't see straight or think clearly and the only person to bring me down from those highs is Jace. I've known him for years and he understands any triggers I have and how to calm me down, but after what she did not even he could help. I smashed the dorm when she left all her lies wrapping around me and I should've listened to Jace when he said something was not adding up with the words she said and yet I didn't listen. She was the first real little I had...she helped me fully accept my care giving side.
I shake my head at the idea that Lily was like her...she isn't. She can't be. That little voice that sparks the ignition of anger rings in my ears. She's only getting closer with you to laugh at what you are. She doesn't mean anything she says to you. She's lying.
"fuck" I sigh and walk to go get changed. I've been here an hour and should really start heading back .I pack my bag and walk out the gym and curse myself for not thinking in my anger and bringing a jacket as it's now raining and it's a fifteen minute walk back to dorms.
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When I get back it's quiet inside. Relief washes over me as I don't think I could face seeing them both. I take my shoes off at the door and make my way to the bathroom for a shower. I drop my bag when I walk in and take off my vest and sweats. The shower is hot as it cascades down my back, soothing my muscles.
When I get out I wrap a towel round my waist and walk into my room; I open the door and my heart sinks slightly. The sight of a sleeping Lily bawled up and clinging onto a sleeping Jace both in pyjamas and looking at ease. They both looked so peaceful and I can't help, but feel as though my presence ruins everything. I've already snapped at Lily twice and I've been living with her for a week and a half.  I grab some shorts to sleep in and get changed. I planned to sleep on the couch, but a noise behind me stops as I begin to leave. I turn to see Jace slowly sitting up and laying Lily comfortably down. He looks over and smiles making me smile too. We both leave and shut the door behind us to talk.
"Danny-"He starts.
"I didn't mean to Jace I couldn't help it I-" Words fumbling out my mouth.
"I know Danny," he sighs. He looks down at my hands and I shove them into my pockets.