Chapter 27: The Butler Sees All

                                    

                                          
I was shocked. Not once have I heard someone say something like that. 'How could he say that so nonchalantly?' I thought, tightening my fists. There's a big difference between the terms 'lonely' and 'alone.' When you feel lonely you are sad but when you are alone you can spend time with the most amazing person in the world, and that is you. I had experienced the dread of loneliness. I stood on that mountain all by myself. There was barely a point of being there. I was the queen of nothing, and so, along with my friends and acquaintances, I disappeared. So... In a sense, I felt for Ainosuke Shindo. I sympathized for Adam. Suddenly, the phone started to ring, "I have a phone call and need some privacy. Dog, take her out in the hallway until I am done." And just like that, I stood in the hallway with Tadashi.
"You're cutting it close, (L/N)." Tadashi started, as I rolled my eyes in his direction, however, I was conflicted. 'What did he mean about crumbling into dust? Does he really not care about his wellbeing, or his career?'
"Hey Tadashi, what did Ainosuke mean when he said, 'he couldn't reform?'" I questioned. Tadashi side glanced me, before gazing at his own feet. This was a touchy subject. I knew that much.
"It was my fault and my fault alone." I gave him a confused look before he decided to elaborate, "As the son of a servant, I have been working for the Shindo family since childhood. When I was of such an age, I found Master Ainosuke crying. I taught Master Ainosuke how to skate, and I inevitably created Adam."
"You... really couldn't be anything else, could you?" The male glared at me before I let out a quick 'sorry.' He appeared to have taken it before I continued, "So... you were the one to teach him? I still don't see how this has anything to do with him being unable to reform."
"He can't reform, because he's obsessed, and I only blame myself." Tadashi stated, tilting his gaze away. I scoffed, before he looked back to me.
"That's completely ludicrous!" I yelled out, as we continued to stand there. I put a hand over my mouth, shutting myself up for three whole seconds. He asked what I meant, "Well, I see it this way. If there's a car accident, who's fault, is it? The guy who ran the red light, or the Mesopotamian guy who invented the wheel?" Tadashi didn't seem to understand, making my huff, "You gave him the fishing rod, so how is it your fault that he fishes with it?"
"I don't think your analogies are accurate..." The butler huffed out.
"They are, but you don't seem to understand that him skateboarding isn't necessarily all your fault." There was a moment of silence, "Do you... want him to stop skateboarding?" I questioned, leaning my back against the wall. Tadashi remained, unmoving. 'He's too stiff...' Bombshell thought before I continued to focus on Tadashi. He nodded curtly, continuing look at the ground. "Have you tried getting him into something else?"
"You think in all the years I have worked for Master Ainosuke and the Shindo family, I didn't once think that I could get him into another hobby?" He questioned harshly, as I shrugged my shoulders.
"I mean, he doesn't seem to know anything outside of skateboarding, so I figured..." My mumbling brought a question to mind. 'If Tadashi has tried to get him into something else... but he chose skateboarding over everything else, then that should give me a clue...' I thought, before looking back to the black haired male. "What are the hobbies that you've tried to get him into?"
"Chess, the violin, the cello-" Before he could continue, I rudely interrupted him.
"Those aren't fun!" I yelled out of frustration, as Tadashi opted to not stay by Ainosuke's office door any longer. He lead my shoulder along before we were far enough away.
"It shouldn't have to be 'fun!' It needs to be safe!!" Tadashi snapped, but I didn't back down.
"Your logic makes no sense! If he likes skateboarding then he finds enjoyment in it, which means he has fun!! Now, whether or not everyone around him isn't suffering, is a different story. You can't give something so boring and uninteresting to him, otherwise, he won't take the bait!!" Tadashi waited to hear it all before giving me his opinion.